Diary of a Mad Cow, Part XIX: "Back in Black ...and White"
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Maintenance drinking. That's about all my drinking amounted to in 2016. I was so good at maintenance drinking that the only way people could tell was if they found my stash.
Absolutely no denial in my head that I cannot drink. Period. Ever again. Drunk once and straight back to physical dependence.
Absolutely no denial in my head that I cannot drink. Period. Ever again. Drunk once and straight back to physical dependence.
Woe is Moo.
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Originally Posted by sleepie 
You still sweaty Cow?
Tired of me bein' up your bum yet?
Tired of me bein' up your bum yet?
I not constant sweaty now, I flashing on and off, which EVEN WORSE, cuz it like fire swelling from inside you one minute, then terrible chills next minute. Make impossible to sleep... cover on, cover off, cover on, cover off, cover ...well you get point.
I was at pretty large level of maintenance drinking, so it was get pretty scary.
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Originally Posted by Delizadee
Pros to drinking:
Everything stops for a second and nothing else matters.
For one. Damn. Moment in time.
SO not worth it.
Everything stops for a second and nothing else matters.
For one. Damn. Moment in time.
SO not worth it.
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Cow I have peri-menopause too and it's stupid. I hear you on the medication side-effects too. It's a fact of life that some people can't find a med that works for them without unmanageable side effects.
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I am 
You guys are too funny.
Cow you got the sweats and I got the paranoid mania going on... everything is making me jumpy and I keep thinking someone's here. Then jumping Jacks and running in place and some mad cackling.
I think I'm going to clean the house for a while. I feel mad.
I'm not happy we're going through this... but I sure am glad I'm not alone.
The hide and go seek sweaty covers game hasn't hit me yet. Stay strong Cow.
You guys are too funny.
Cow you got the sweats and I got the paranoid mania going on... everything is making me jumpy and I keep thinking someone's here. Then jumping Jacks and running in place and some mad cackling.
I think I'm going to clean the house for a while. I feel mad.
I'm not happy we're going through this... but I sure am glad I'm not alone.
The hide and go seek sweaty covers game hasn't hit me yet. Stay strong Cow.
Woe is Moo.
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You too, Liza.
High TLili, yeah, I think I done with the med game. They just go into the trash, and I has go almost psychotic on some of them.
Oh Sleepies, you chucklehead. But really? No Dave Navarro, Jared Leto or Jack Sparrow. Come on now.
High TLili,
yeah, I think I done with the med game. They just go into the trash, and I has go almost psychotic on some of them. Oh Sleepies, you chucklehead. But really? No Dave Navarro, Jared Leto or Jack Sparrow. Come on now.
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Ok
Cons of my binge drinking
Blackout for hours
Lie
Very promiscuous- Have sex with men that are losers ( I'm promiscuous sober too- but the quality of men is much better)
Spend money.
Smoke a ton of cigs.
Hangovers so bad just existing is torture.
Miss work and have to lie to clients about why deadlines aren't completed.
Late to appointments because still drunk in the morning and can't drive.
Cheat on boyfriends if I have one.
Really bad stomach.
Send out really nasty or emotional texts.
Weight gain.
Binge one night a week- which leads to 4 nights a week, and will very quickly be every night if I don't keep it in check.
Can barely pay attention in class the next day.
Feel like a weak loser.
Insomnia for days.
Eat horribly during hangover.
Don't eat all day so I can drink and catch a buzz.
Sleep in my clothes, lights on, possible to leave oven or something on.
Burns from cooking and other injuries.
Mystery cuts and bruises everywhere.
Lose things.
Anxiety.
Making promises I have no intention of keeping.
Pros
Go from 60-0 in minutes- relax
I write better papers for school- sad but true; I get better grades on my drunken papers I edit in the morning.
Better dancer
( so I think)
Stop worrying for a while
My ex boyfriend took a video of me in a blackout- very scary.
Cons of my binge drinking
Blackout for hours
Lie
Very promiscuous- Have sex with men that are losers ( I'm promiscuous sober too- but the quality of men is much better)
Spend money.
Smoke a ton of cigs.
Hangovers so bad just existing is torture.
Miss work and have to lie to clients about why deadlines aren't completed.
Late to appointments because still drunk in the morning and can't drive.
Cheat on boyfriends if I have one.
Really bad stomach.
Send out really nasty or emotional texts.
Weight gain.
Binge one night a week- which leads to 4 nights a week, and will very quickly be every night if I don't keep it in check.
Can barely pay attention in class the next day.
Feel like a weak loser.
Insomnia for days.
Eat horribly during hangover.
Don't eat all day so I can drink and catch a buzz.
Sleep in my clothes, lights on, possible to leave oven or something on.
Burns from cooking and other injuries.
Mystery cuts and bruises everywhere.
Lose things.
Anxiety.
Making promises I have no intention of keeping.
Pros
Go from 60-0 in minutes- relax
I write better papers for school- sad but true; I get better grades on my drunken papers I edit in the morning.
Better dancer
( so I think)Stop worrying for a while
My ex boyfriend took a video of me in a blackout- very scary.
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