Sober creative dilemma.
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Have you got small children in your family or nephews and nieces? I find hanging out with my godchildren a really good way to inspire my creative side.....little kids have such huge imaginations it runs wild and starts to rub off on me!
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Oh no, I don't and I do need just that. I worked for a family for quite awhile as a nanny. I miss the kids so badly. I sent them some cards and things awhile back, never heard anything...then sent another asked if I could visit... nothing.
I was real down about it. I do miss them. I need that spontaneity and imagination. I laughed for hours with those kids. Best times of my life. All I had to get up and out of bed for sometimes.
I was real down about it. I do miss them. I need that spontaneity and imagination. I laughed for hours with those kids. Best times of my life. All I had to get up and out of bed for sometimes.
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You know how for some here, at the end of your drinking days- you kept doing it anyway and you thought it would be a good time, feel good and everything- and then it just sucked when you drank? It wasn't fun anymore?
That's how art making feels to me now. I even get the same sick to my stomach feeling. I set everything up- my coffee, some tv or a film I've seen already because I like that in the background... and then nothing. Or just intense boredom.
I just looked at my sketchbook of "just drawing, doodling, sketches, etc..." just a wasted book. Money down the drain. Sorry dead trees, wasn't worth it was it? Nope.
it's because life is crap. For someone like me it's just crap. And there's no feeling inspired, interested or happy when you are an outsider, and I am that.
That's how art making feels to me now. I even get the same sick to my stomach feeling. I set everything up- my coffee, some tv or a film I've seen already because I like that in the background... and then nothing. Or just intense boredom.
I just looked at my sketchbook of "just drawing, doodling, sketches, etc..." just a wasted book. Money down the drain. Sorry dead trees, wasn't worth it was it? Nope.
it's because life is crap. For someone like me it's just crap. And there's no feeling inspired, interested or happy when you are an outsider, and I am that.
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I struggle with this. Drinking was a huge part of my creative endeavors. I have not had success creatively since I quit, but I'd rather be not creative than drink again. If it's a part of me I need to let go, I will. It is hard and sad, though. I have no solution.
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I'm sorry you feel that way about your art right now Sleepie but I have faith it will change again.
There's a vast difference between doing something because you want to and something because you have to.
It's clear to me from your work that you love your art and you'd do it for no money.
I hope you can get rid of some of the stress and get back to the love
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There's a vast difference between doing something because you want to and something because you have to.
It's clear to me from your work that you love your art and you'd do it for no money.
I hope you can get rid of some of the stress and get back to the love
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Sleepie ,
Have you considered looking for another nanny gig?
If that seems too much right now, maybe you could volunteer with kids somewhere for a few hours/week?
My mom reads to a little kid class a couple of times per month. Sounds fun?
Just a thought.
Have you considered looking for another nanny gig?
If that seems too much right now, maybe you could volunteer with kids somewhere for a few hours/week?
My mom reads to a little kid class a couple of times per month. Sounds fun?
Just a thought.
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