I love alcohol, I hate alcohol dilemma
 

On one hand I really enjoy alcohol. The taste of whiskey on ice is the greatest feeling. On the other hand it has brought about consequences. The day I was sentenced to prison I vowed never to drink again. I had access to homemade alcohol while incarcerated but I managed to abstain. Within, 1 month of my release I was drinking the bottle again. I work in the construction industry and return to work this week. I'm fortunate to still have a job as most ex-cons do not. Although I have been drinking off and on the last year I get off parole next month. I am scared to death of getting off parole.

I hope I done come across as sanctimonious...but it's actually a pretty mundane feeling compared to all the other feelings out there.

I had to get sober to start living life again.
The joy I genuinely feel in my life now makes a glass of whiskey a very 'meh' kind of experience.

It's a leap of faith to pout the whiskey down and go for that sober life and all the things people tell you it holds - but I hope you do.

Have you seen the Dr yet by the way? I know you were worried with health stuff.

D

Dee, yeah it takes a while to see specialists in this country even with good insurance. I return to work this week and use equipment that I must be sober at. Working or staying busy though always has helped me.

Sorry - I thought you said you were seeing someone last Friday.
Just wondered :)

D

Yes, my regular MD. But she is not a Gastro Intestinal doctor.Our health care system can be a complex maze at times. I wish I lived in Australia.

I have the same dilemma.... thankfully I hate it more than I love it.

Now when I think about having a drink I think about all the times it kicked my ass...made me deathly sick, broke, unemployed, act like a jerk, rendered me incapable of defending myself against predictors, ostracized by friends and loved ones and STILL I loved it! Until I stopped loving myself completely....then a choice had to be made....me or the booze....one of us had to go for good....that's when I realized I couldn't carry on that love/hate relationship anymore....the dilemma had to be solved!

I picked Me by the way! I wish the same for you!

I used to like drinking until the consequences were so severe that sobriety looked like a better choice.

There's nothing to be afraid of unlucky, just quit fighting alcohol and move on with life. You can live just fine without it. Trust us. It's so much better without it.