Sleepie's Testing Countdown Support Thread
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I had a feeling this was going to happen. I have been kind of going nuts, quietly to myself at home because other than you guys there's nobody to talk to. I tried to tell one person who has known me for a long time and they made a joke. This is too much to deal with having nobody in my life to talk to, You guys are great and I appreciate everything you have done for me but a person needs real life support too . I feel crappy saying that but it's the truth, I needed someone to talk to these past few weeks, I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it. I gave up on seeking any emotional support from bf. He is a nice guy but that isn't really something he does.
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That would cost more money. I don't know what the dr would do, he is testing me. I am so upset that my bf couldn't muster just a tiny little fraction of something, he knows I've not been doing well... but then I was slipping in to depression and suicidal thoughts and he told me he thought everything was just fine even though I hadn't gotten out of bed for more than a quick errand a couple times.
Sleepie, I'm sending good mojo your way today.
Fortunately the last few weeks are over and you have a chance to start from today. I didn't say start "fresh," I know that can't be done right now, but just saying once that appointment is over it's a new beginning of some sort.
That's meant to be supportive and understanding at the same time.
Hope it comes across that way.
Fortunately the last few weeks are over and you have a chance to start from today. I didn't say start "fresh," I know that can't be done right now, but just saying once that appointment is over it's a new beginning of some sort.
That's meant to be supportive and understanding at the same time.
Hope it comes across that way.
sleepie , I hear you about the IRL support. It is lonely not having anyone to speak face to face with when you are so troubled. My husband is lousy with the emotional support so I do know how that feels, to have a loved one right in front of you yet he can't see the pain you are in.
I wish I could give you a IRL hug
I wish I could give you a IRL hug
Sleeps,
Please do your best to get thru this, and then see.
I know you feel like all the odds are stacked against you once again, and that is fair, but try not to go there.
Do the test as best as you can, cause we know you can even when you don't.
And we love you even when you don't.
XXX
Please do your best to get thru this, and then see.
I know you feel like all the odds are stacked against you once again, and that is fair, but try not to go there.
Do the test as best as you can, cause we know you can even when you don't.
And we love you even when you don't.
XXX
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I was almost in tears, I was exhausted and I know I would have done better on at least one part where I was practically falling asleep. I hated the whole thing too, I felt like an idiot fumbling around and unsuccessfully attempting to make shapes with these plastic puzzles. I so wanted to get this done and over and ALL I NEEDED was a little damn support from the bf but it seems he has not one small particle in his entire being that is willing to do such a thing.
We love you girl -- but try not to be too too hard on the BF.
You have said so many times how much you know he loves you, and love is not easy to find...
And boys be boys, not the highpoint in the emotional support department, but can have other upsides.
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You have said so many times how much you know he loves you, and love is not easy to find...
And boys be boys, not the highpoint in the emotional support department, but can have other upsides.
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