desperate to drink
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
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Great to meet you, tonesward. I'm so glad you're here.
Your 'solution' made me smile - sounds like a winner. I'm sorry you're going through this painful time, but 12 days sober is something to be so proud of. Please stay with us and let us know how it's going. We care about you.
Your 'solution' made me smile - sounds like a winner. I'm sorry you're going through this painful time, but 12 days sober is something to be so proud of. Please stay with us and let us know how it's going. We care about you.
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Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: 30.47ºN, 98.15ºW
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Congrats on twelve days, bud. Tough news with your wife, but keep moving forward with your sobriety. She will either see and appreciate it, or she won't, but in either event you will be better off.
I lived in Spain for a year, near Seville in the south. I love the country, the people, the food, the culture. Enjoy it while you're there so far as you can, and return home with a clean and refreshed mind.
I lived in Spain for a year, near Seville in the south. I love the country, the people, the food, the culture. Enjoy it while you're there so far as you can, and return home with a clean and refreshed mind.
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Join Date: Feb 2016
Location: Faringdon
Posts: 44
checking in
ok I made it through the night
I want to thank all of you for your support
I couldn't believe so many of you posted - I read each reply with tears in my eyes. I realize i've been on this road alone for so many years and now I've found a place where there are people like me who actually understand what this is like
My plan was good - eat well, get cosy and watch TV. And then I slept and every day when I wake up and I realize I don't have to go through the hangover ritual it is just a wonderful miracle - that life can be this
And I learned a massive lesson - that Urges pass. Last night was the worst it's ever been and if I hadn't randomly reached out and found this sanctuary I don't think I would have made it. This community may literally have saved my life and I just want to say I am so grateful to you all
I know I'm way too emotional but I still can hardly believe that I got through last night and now I'm more determined than ever to really make this a permanent change - especially after taking the time to read some other peoples stories. Gives me hope that it can be done and makes me realize I'm not alone
Thank you all - I'll keep posting
btw Dave - I'm in Valencia - the food here is great,especially the fresh fruit!
I want to thank all of you for your support
I couldn't believe so many of you posted - I read each reply with tears in my eyes. I realize i've been on this road alone for so many years and now I've found a place where there are people like me who actually understand what this is like
My plan was good - eat well, get cosy and watch TV. And then I slept and every day when I wake up and I realize I don't have to go through the hangover ritual it is just a wonderful miracle - that life can be this
And I learned a massive lesson - that Urges pass. Last night was the worst it's ever been and if I hadn't randomly reached out and found this sanctuary I don't think I would have made it. This community may literally have saved my life and I just want to say I am so grateful to you all
I know I'm way too emotional but I still can hardly believe that I got through last night and now I'm more determined than ever to really make this a permanent change - especially after taking the time to read some other peoples stories. Gives me hope that it can be done and makes me realize I'm not alone
Thank you all - I'll keep posting
btw Dave - I'm in Valencia - the food here is great,especially the fresh fruit!
Last edited by tonesward; 02-20-2016 at 09:01 PM. Reason: more detail
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Join Date: Feb 2016
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Good for you for getting through that urge. I know I experienced a massive blow in my life right before Christmas. I stayed sober for two weeks through the whole thing except for putting it behind me as I went back home. I couldn't handle dropping my son off with his father and my daughter not talking to me. I drove the 7 hours home and drinking seemed to be the only answer at the other end. I really just pushed pause on all the crap and while I numbed out and forgot the very worst of the pain, it still hurts like hell and it still needs to be dealt with.
Have you read about doing a recovery plan? This time around for me I'm trying to make sure I have a good plan so I don't trip myself up again.
Have you read about doing a recovery plan? This time around for me I'm trying to make sure I have a good plan so I don't trip myself up again.
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Join Date: Jan 2016
Location: Northwest
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Thank you so much for checking in...I looked for you first thing, hoping you made it through...and you did!
If you can get through that sober, you can do anything. Bravo!!!
P.S. I have to say, this was sheer poetry...
"Just want a drink so bad I want to rip my face off and beat myself with it"
Never heard it described better!
If you can get through that sober, you can do anything. Bravo!!!
P.S. I have to say, this was sheer poetry...
"Just want a drink so bad I want to rip my face off and beat myself with it"
Never heard it described better!
Life Goes On
Join Date: Jul 2012
Location: Baltimore, Maryland
Posts: 6,069
What a wonderful story of strength and commitment!
May you carry that with you through your life challenges, present and future knowing that you have the power of you and strangers who will rally for you doing what's right.
Amen.
May you carry that with you through your life challenges, present and future knowing that you have the power of you and strangers who will rally for you doing what's right.
Amen.
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: Colorado
Posts: 3,781
Tonesward,
I'm glad you had a good night! I've been thinking about you too! When I first got on to SR in 2012 I was welcomed the same way, it's a huge support tool when we first decide to make a change for the better in our lives! You're not alone in this journey that's for sure! Post often and reach out if you ever find yourself in a pinch!
Wow, Valencia is so beautiful, I'm envious! The city of arts and science area is amazing, so futuristic!!
I hope you have a busy day!! Kudos on your 13-14th day!! Keep up the good work and take it one day at a time!!
I wish you could fedex me a couple gallons of orange juice! Ha
I'm glad you had a good night! I've been thinking about you too! When I first got on to SR in 2012 I was welcomed the same way, it's a huge support tool when we first decide to make a change for the better in our lives! You're not alone in this journey that's for sure! Post often and reach out if you ever find yourself in a pinch!
Wow, Valencia is so beautiful, I'm envious! The city of arts and science area is amazing, so futuristic!!
I hope you have a busy day!! Kudos on your 13-14th day!! Keep up the good work and take it one day at a time!!
I wish you could fedex me a couple gallons of orange juice! Ha
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