Close Call
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Close Call
Had a strange thing happen while we were visiting friends in Puerto Rico. I got sick with a bad cold, and decided to stay in Friday night while my husband and friends went out for an early dinner. It was very windy, and the electricity went out. It started to get dark and all I found were a few little candles and a really small flashlight. No internet access. I sat there and started to have some anxiety. There was a bottle of vodka on the counter. Although I didn't drink, I came incredibly close. At almost 18 month sober, it was the closest I have come to drinking. I kept wrestling with it in my head. Fortunately my better judgement won, but it was so close that it really scared me. It was such a bizarre string of circumstances. Your AV really does just sit and wait...
No, that's not right, I don't mean left you alone with it like you're a baby or something, but I guess I mean left it sitting there knowing you're working on that. I would want my hubby to help me out and put it out of view or something.
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Fevor, there is vodka in plain sight (along with a full bar) at my house 24/7, as my husband is a daily drinker. I didn't ask him to change anything, since it was my decision to quit. I think that's why the urge in Puerto Rico took me by such suprise, as I am used to being around it all the time. The anxiety from the power outage in a relatively foreign place was unsettling and triggered the urge, I suppose.
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As suggested to me here in this forum, I saw and found immensely helpful a presentation by Dr. Kevin McCauley on Addiction as a Disease (you can find it on YouTube). He explains clearly and precisely why it is that times of stress cause cravings and introduce the risk of relapse. I found it really helpful.
Blessings,
YA
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