Introvrtd1

Day 71......

Driving has been an anxiety trigger for me for 20+ years......Sometimes I could drive for hours if I planned it right......sometimes it would bother me to do a 30 min or less trip.....Like flying, its that feeling of being trapped in a confined space.....at least with driving, I feel like I have some degree of control.....

I feel like I have control in sobriety.....I choose not to drink because I remember how horrible it feels to be in withdrawal.....I finally got sick n tired of being sick n tired....

Well.....I pray I don't lose that control, because I also remember how great it felt to be high on alcohol, the withdrawal be damned.....Its just not worth it anymore....

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FlacoJ

This is day 1 for me. My nerves are shot. Withdrawal does feel horrible

Dee74

71 days is great Introv.

The only way to lose that control is to give it away man - if you want to keep it, you'll do whats needed - you'll be OK

Have a good weekend

D

Introvrtd1

78 days....

A new record....Still determined to keep going.....Doesn't sound like much compared to those here who've been sober for years, but I feel like I still have a very long way to go....

Just working on trying to be happy while I journey through this new and wonderful life of sobriety.....Maybe I'm trying too hard....I realize at this point happiness is not something i can force myself to become....I feel it has to occur naturally.

Introvrtd1

Getting through the weekends are a lot easier now.....Hardly ever think about drinking.... My battles are still with anxiety and depression, but on such a smaller scale than before....

Introvrtd1

Almost bedtime now.....This used to be the most worrisome time of the day for me....now its when Im winding down and looking forward to a good nights sleep....and that sleep usually comes..

This is what normal feels like as I remember it years before The drink.

Diet is coming along.....Exercise needs a little work but I get spurts of nervous energy and partake in a light set of calestenics (spelling)....

Im still a work in progress.

Bunny211

264 days sober...Thank you God.

FlacoJ

Day 4

Introvrtd1

Hang in there Flaco.

Soberwolf

You guys are awesome

Introvrtd1

Great milestone Bunny!

I pray to see that day when it comes!

cabron

Well done Intro, Bunny, Falco and all the others

I just crossed 100 days of sobriety and it is slowly beginning to get better

The lows aren't quite as low and are less frequent

Focus, problem solving, and confidence has improved.

Much work still to be done and while I had hoped for much more sooner, I now understand the battle of recovery more clearly thanks to SR

For me the process of recovery has yet to provide any overnight benefits or immediate relief from the torture of addiction

It hasn't even happened in large chunks but day by day I do get small bits and pieces of comfort that are beginning to add up to an overall improved wellness and I have found hope again

I'm now optimistic that, long term, contentment in sobriety is actually within my reach if I'll remain abstinenant while continuing to work and evolve my plan

Great thanks to the many sobriety warriors for the wisdom and encouragement shared on this site

FlacoJ

Day 5. Rolling on. Bit of a test, tonight, with a two hour commute that has had a tendency to make me crave drinking when I get home. Last time, I did this trek, a week ago, I gave in to temptation, and it wasn't good. I don't want to repeat that pattern this week

Introvrtd1

Wow Cabron!

Keep it up!

Introvrtd1

I been there Flaco!

Don't give up!

Introvrtd1

Sigh.....

Depression is such a roller coaster ride......

Dee74

I've probably asked this a million times - can't keep track of everyone's back story today - but have you considered seeing a Dr about this Introvrtd?

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IvanMike

Hang in there Intro. Not a bad idea to see a doc if depression becomes profound, but mood swings are normal at this stage of the game. Do you have meetings or other recovery based support outside of SR? That face to face aspect was vital for me.

Don't sweat being a work in progress, we all are. All feelings pass. Life gets easier to manage and deal with over time. We gain the experience that we can make it through those periods when we are overwhelmed or uncertain or just want to escape, and we can make it through them clean & sober.

Bunny211

Hang in there! It gets better! I was majorly depressed for the first few months but it lifted. I used to take major doses of 3 anti depressants...now I take none. Take it easy and realize that your nervous system is still shot and trying to recover. Give it time and get lots of rest, good food and fluids (no booze though haha). Recovery takes time. I'm here cheering you on!

Introvrtd1

Thanks Dee, Ivan, and Bunny....

I just had a short bout....hit me like a five pound brick....A half hour later, it lifted....I think the lemon water helped a bit. I drink it hot like tea, and it made me feel better......Lifted my mood a bit....

Strange roller coaster ride....