Mountainmanbob

I feel for you for it can be a rough ride here at times.
Thank God that (we) are going though this sober.
M-Bob

sleepie

That was awesome on several levels zjw

Bostonsportsfan

There was a time life broke me. There's still problems, but I'm not broken anymore. I know how you feel and I know you will succeed if you stick with it. Keep fighting Sleepie and I promise you will get there.

Merry Christmas

sleepie

SO nervous about Xmas with bf's family tomorrow.
I always get this way. I was used to not having anything much for holidays and also I have to look nice, which makes me feel weird like I'll be judged?
And strangers who all belong to each other. I know his folks a little more but still always feel like I am hiding everything about myself, he is a nice normal guy from a nice normal family.

So I go all OCD and anxiety through the roof because I lost a shirt somehow, like it vanished into thin air. I will be figuring out where or how it could have possibly disappeared, and there is no explanation and it will drive me nuts. I know that it's partially because I am so nervous about tomorrow does anyone else get this way?
It makes me feel bad too because he never has to meet my family or anything since I went No Contact many years ago.

I am worn out from all the visiting with his folks and holidays where as for years before I had nothing. They are nice and all but it just wears me out after awhile because I always fear I will do and say the wrong thing.

And it reminds me that I have no family. Nobody wondering "Is this guy good enough for Sleepie?" But they are certainly wondering of me. That's what families do right?

sleepie

Also bf absolutely SUCKS at reassurance.

So I am just kind of sucking it up alone as usual as far as this goes

sleepie

Alright UGH I am a wreck and so anxious
I'll just eat myself into a stupor
maybe cancel tomorrow
I really can't do families.

least

Ah, go anyway and have a good time. If someone's judging you, so be it. Let them judge. Go and have fun.

2ndhandrose

Merry Christmas sleepie!

I hope your visit to the inlaws is not as bad as anticipated. I understand from the perspective of my own social anxiety.

I am fortunate to stay home today in my Christmas jammies, playing with my toys and watching bad Christmas movies

Pondlady

Merry Christmas sleepie

sleepie

Thanks all

It is DONE

I was so anxious, just like Thanksgiving, I got maybe 3 hours sleep. Glad it's over.

Dee74

Hope you enjoy the rest of the festive season sleepie

D

sleepie

I will. In Bed Island.

Hawkeye13

Great job sleepie!
I have to see in-laws tommorow
It's like going on the set of "Leave it to Beaver"
and hanging out with Ward and June in their spotless house
talking of nothing.

No screaming, no broken dishes, no drama. . .
What's a girl to do?

sleepie

lol Hawkeye I feel feral in front of these people.

Have a good time...?