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Old 12-07-2015, 10:42 PM
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Starting over

Hi there

Well its been a hard year... Relapsed back to active alcoholism after having been sober for a year in Nov 2014

this year has been a blur...I'm living with my parents currently and I am grateful for that.. I haven't held work for a while now..so many of us end up homeless and with nothing so I have learned over the years to be thankful for small mercies and being tolerated whilst in the throes of obliteration...
However I am two days off my fortieth birthday and something inside me is saying you don't have to do this anymore..it is the voice of hope
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Old 12-07-2015, 10:45 PM
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Sorry to hear you've struggled - but it's good to see you back and on the right track vandermast

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Welcome bk Vandermast
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Old 12-08-2015, 06:30 AM
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Welcome back vandermast. It doesn't need to be like this anymore, you had a year under your belt so you know exactly how good things can be. Hope you can stick around, lots of support and understanding can be found here.
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Old 12-08-2015, 09:32 AM
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Hey man , sorry to hear this. If you ever want to chat sometime , just give me a message. Sharing experiences is always good.
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Old 12-08-2015, 10:00 AM
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Welcome back, Vandermast; nice to see you.

I am sorry that it has been such a difficult year for you. You can do this; you have the memory of a sober year upon which to build.

Keep listening to that voice of hope; turn up the volume, too.
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Old 12-08-2015, 04:30 PM
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Hey vander. You know how to be sober. Find that memory and cling to it.
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Old 12-08-2015, 05:55 PM
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Old 12-08-2015, 06:23 PM
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I'm glad to see you back here, Vandermast. Stay close and don't be afraid -- there is hope!
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Old 12-08-2015, 06:24 PM
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Happy to have you back with us, Vandermast - with new resolve. Sounds like you're very ready to do this.
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Old 12-09-2015, 10:10 PM
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Thanks for the support

Hey you guys thanks for the msgs of support and encouragement.

I slipped up yesterday but paid the price for it...Jesus my body really can not do this anymore I've spent half the day in bed nursing the mother of all hangovers...I'm thinking that it would be nice to have my sobriety date as my birthday...so here goes...

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Old 12-09-2015, 10:12 PM
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Old 12-09-2015, 10:25 PM
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hi Vandermast, what is your plan for recovery? Who will you tell? How will you occupy your time? etc etc
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Originally Posted by ubntubnt View Post
hi Vandermast, what is your plan for recovery? Who will you tell? How will you occupy your time? etc etc
Good questions. I had a spell of sobriety about a year before I stopped. People might have said to me, "well you had that time up so you know how good it can be". But to be truthful, that sober time was just about the most miserable time of my life. So full of fear, unable to interact with people, disonnected, and unhappy.

In order to get sober and stay that way I had to make some changes, a lot of changes, to make a sober life liveable, let alone enjoyable. A plan for recovery was essential.
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Old 12-10-2015, 05:12 AM
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Originally Posted by Vandermast View Post
Hey you guys thanks for the msgs of support and encouragement.

I slipped up yesterday but paid the price for it...Jesus my body really can not do this anymore I've spent half the day in bed nursing the mother of all hangovers...I'm thinking that it would be nice to have my sobriety date as my birthday...so here goes...

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Happy Birthday Vandermast--what a wonderful gift to give yourself.
You can do it
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Old 12-10-2015, 12:51 PM
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Day 2 sleepless night

Hey y'all

Tired yet still have to to job agency so as to maintain benefits...

At least can sleep later in day if need to..and probably will

Shaking the monkey off my back

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Old 12-10-2015, 12:56 PM
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I'm glad you're doing better. I hope you get more sleep tonight.
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Old 12-10-2015, 02:18 PM
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Happy Birthday Vandermast

I think a recovery plan would be a great gift to yourself to be honest...do you have any ideas?

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Happy birthday, Vandermast and welcome back!

Sorry you've had a rough time; you sound like you are ready to get back on the wagon. Take care of yourself and I hope you stick around.
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