First AA meeting take away
Introspectator
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First AA meeting take away
Well I'm happy to say that this is day 16! Real happy. I love being sober, and so relieved that I seriously want it this time around.
I went to my first AA meeting tonight, that is, first in 15-20 years. Back then I went like twice and ran from there as fast as I could. Here is my take away from tonight. In the past, when it was my turn to introduce myself and say "I am an alcoholic" it was more emotional. It seems that I was simply saying it because I was supposed to. And in reflection i know that, in my mind I was hearing myself say something like " yeah whatever, I'm an alcoholic if that is what I have to say," and at the same time thinking that "I just need to get a better handle on this." Well, tonight when it was my turn I said "I am an alcoholic" it was straight up out of an understanding that YES I AM, and the denial is over. I believe it finally, and this is perhaps why I have stayed on track thus far. I am an alcoholic. I am 1 drink away from disaster, and I want nothing to do with alcohol providing another disaster in my life, whatever that disaster may manifest itself as. Thankful for this SR group! Thank you all!
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I went to my first AA meeting tonight, that is, first in 15-20 years. Back then I went like twice and ran from there as fast as I could. Here is my take away from tonight. In the past, when it was my turn to introduce myself and say "I am an alcoholic" it was more emotional. It seems that I was simply saying it because I was supposed to. And in reflection i know that, in my mind I was hearing myself say something like " yeah whatever, I'm an alcoholic if that is what I have to say," and at the same time thinking that "I just need to get a better handle on this." Well, tonight when it was my turn I said "I am an alcoholic" it was straight up out of an understanding that YES I AM, and the denial is over. I believe it finally, and this is perhaps why I have stayed on track thus far. I am an alcoholic. I am 1 drink away from disaster, and I want nothing to do with alcohol providing another disaster in my life, whatever that disaster may manifest itself as. Thankful for this SR group! Thank you all!
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To a "normie" the significance of saying that truth at the beginning of each meeting is probably lost. I need that reminder, and as simple as that sentence is, until I accepted it as truth I was unable to do anything about that truth and move forward.
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Originally Posted by Introspectator 
Well I'm happy to say that this is day 16! Real happy. I love being sober, and so relieved that I seriously want it this time around. I went to my first AA meeting tonight, that is, first in 15-20 years. Back then I went like twice and ran from there as fast as I could. Here is my take away from tonight. In the past, when it was my turn to introduce myself and say "I am an alcoholic" it was more emotional. It seems that I was simply saying it because I was supposed to. And in reflection i know that, in my mind I was hearing myself say something like " yeah whatever, I'm an alcoholic if that is what I have to say," and at the same time thinking that "I just need to get a better handle on this." Well, tonight when it was my turn I said "I am an alcoholic" it was straight up out of an understanding that YES I AM, and the denial is over. I believe it finally, and this is perhaps why I have stayed on track thus far. I am an alcoholic. I am 1 drink away from disaster, and I want nothing to do with alcohol providing another disaster in my life, whatever that disaster may manifest itself as. Thankful for this SR group! Thank you all! Introspectator
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