trachemys

See how strong you are? Bad feelings and all and you aren't drinking.

I'm so proud of you.

SoberLeigh

Hugs, dear sleepie. Those mean people don't deserve a friend as great as you.

Grungehead

As a drunk, mean people were an excuse to drink.

As a sober person I gave up all of my excuses to drink.

There's always going to be mean people in the world. Getting sober means I have to learn a different way to deal with them. I had to realize that by drinking "at" mean people I was in effect being mean to myself, because bad things always happen when I drink. As someone who suffers from chronic depression it's really hard not to let other people's behavior towards me fester and turn into resentment, and for me resentment is the number one offender when it comes to picking up a drink.

Stay strong sleepie, this too shall pass. And each time you weather the storm it will make you stronger realizing that no one can make you drink.

SparkleKitty

Sorry I missed this earlier, Sleepie. I am one of those who care. I am really proud you didn't drink over this today and really mad that anyone thinks they have the right yo real you badly. I hope you keep checking in.

sleepie

Thanks guys.
I guess you're right Grungehead, at the end of the day- haters gonna hate!

sleepie

Glad to see you Sparkle kitty

SparkleKitty

My post should have said I am mad that anyone thinks they have the "right to treat you badly". AutoCorrect on my iPad is my mortal enemy.

SoberLeigh

I am proud of you, sleepie; you are a strong woman.

Ken33xx

Don't pick up a drink and keep posting

sleepie

I got it Sparkle. Auto correct is so annoying.
I had 2 and done.
I really could not take it anymore.
Out of respect for you all l am honest about it.

Hawkeye13

That's OK sleepie--good to be honest.
Happy Day 1, and let's make a pact to finish out 2015 completely sober no matter what

I've got your back

ScottFromWI

Out of respect for yourself Sleepie, please take a look back at your last thread with the new plan - those 3 things could have been quite integral in helping you cope. I'm guessing it was a doctor or a therapist that you saw who prescribed the Antabuse and the other OCD meds? Maybe you could give them a call back to get the plan rolling?

paddyjnr1

Hang n there sleepe, drnking wont ease t only add to the pain and Isolation. Look at my first thread when I joined a little over a few weeks ago, certainly not a nce place to be but I'm recovering day by day, my stitches are gone and I have reached out for help.
Today I had to ask a charity for money for food which they gave me 50euro vouchers for a local shop.
I hated doing it but if you ask you will survive.
So get on that phone and ask for help. God bless you

Tooshabby

Hope things have improved a little bit, Sleeps (((hugs)))

leviathan

Hey sleepie, sorry times are tough. Sorry about the meanies. Sometimes the feel like they outnumber us...

Even with your little slip, I have to say you seem like you're dealing so much better than a few months ago. -At least that's how I picture it. Do you hav any support you can get face to face? S.R. is great, but it helps to have someone to call when your are contemplating the bottle.

sleepie

Ok Hawkeye sounds good

Thanks Leviathan, no nobody face to face. I had some not so great experience with AA before so I am not too keen on that.

Zebra1275

Don't drink.

As you know, it might make you feel better for a couple of hours. But then you can add miserable and hungover to whatever negative feelings you already have. There is no upside to drinking.

sleepie

I'm alright zebra, I only had 2. No hangover.

Clarebear13

sleepie

As far as OCD meds. I am finally done with pills, no more valium. I really want to not have a pill or alcohol and just let my body not have drugs of some kind for awhile. A long while. If the OCD meds were a guarantee to work I would be more inclined to get them. But they are iffy. It would be great to have a day or days where I do not have to deal with this stuff. But the meds are just not a sure thing and the side effects sound very undesirable. The anxiety group is only once a month and I'm going but it's not for a little while yet.