Introspectator

I am new here, but that is because I posted here in September 2014, was sober 1 month, and then went back to the same old drinking. I have to make today my Day 1 and never look back. I blew up again last evening at home with my family 😔. The things I get upset about are legitimate, but the manner in which I address it, while under the influence is horrific.
I want sobriety badly...hope I can do this.
Introspectator

biminiblue

You can do this.

Welcome back!

zombob

Welcome back Intro! I can so relate to exaggerated emotional outbursts. Not drinking reduces them dramatically but also gives me the chance to work on better coping skills. No chance at all while drinking. Take care and stick around.

ScottFromWI

Welcome back introspector. I also remember time when I had selfish/childish outbursts while drinking, sometimes over simple things too. You had a month of sobriety under your belt at one time, that's a great accomplishment and proof that you can do it. SR can help too, did you follow any formal plan during your last sober time?

Dropsie

You got this, but you got to want it, even when its hard. But you got this, KP

entropy1964

I totally relate. When I'm loaded, or even just after a couple of drinks at this point, I can become quite irrational. My emotional regulation is gone and I react to things in a way that I would never even consider when not drinking. Its totally out of my control now. I had to stop, period. You can do this if you want it badly enough.

Introspectator

I did not have a plan to follow last time. Any suggestions?

JD

A plan is different for everyone. You were sober for one month before. What happened for you to start drinking. A start of a plan would be to plan for that situation.

Mountainmanbob

Welcome back and you can do this.
Takes a little work and a firm decision must be made.
MB

Soberwolf

Nice to meet you

ScottFromWI

This is a great resource with lots of answers to that question. You'll find lots of support for almost all of them here on SR as well

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

SoberLeigh

Scott' s link is a great one.

Here is another:

https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...0/SMA-3720.pdf

SoberLeigh

Welcome back, intro; you can do this.

Dave42001

Wishing you the best, as others said you can do this, I had to make some changes but it can be done, you'll feel so much better!

Introspectator

Thanks for all the replies. I have a feeling I will need to be here often, I'm already having thoughts of "after work." 😞

ScottFromWI

Those thoughts will come, but they are just that-thoughts. You choose how you react to them, and further the outcome. Come here instead, find an AA meeting, go for a walk with your family, the list is pretty endless of things you CAN do instead of drinking. Would you rather wake up tomorrow knowing you didn't drink or a repeat of this morning ( or worse ) ? You get to choose.

least

I hope the awesome support here can help you get sober for good this time.

Introspectator

I understand getting out of stressful situations that trigger the urge to drink, but that is my entire household. I have a wife that will not allow me to lead or address our adult son of 24 yrs old that needs to accept responsibility etc. But that is another story...

Introspectator

ScottFromWI

We all live with stress whether we drink or not. The key is learning to face life for what it is rather than running away to hide in the bottom of a bottle.

Going about that might involve a regimented sobriety plan, therapy, self help, etc. But the first step is taking alcohol off the table completely.

Wastinglife

I also seem to air my grievances only after too much to drink. I hold things in or ignore them when sober so I am literally a ticking time bomb when drinking.