I'm drinking now after 8 years sobriety
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As one who just got 8 years of sobriety, this scares me.
You mention much regarding the Program but, no mention of God.
In early AA they were not playing with the higher power thing, they were serious.
Most relapsers in my home group come back humble and more than willing to try again.
Good luck.
Mountainman
You mention much regarding the Program but, no mention of God.
In early AA they were not playing with the higher power thing, they were serious.
Most relapsers in my home group come back humble and more than willing to try again.
Good luck.
Mountainman
Paddy - that is *so* wonderful!! I'm so glad he was understanding - exactly as he ought to be. It takes a lot of courage to go to a doctor and admit you're an alcoholic. The Xanax will help so much to calm you down while you go through the worst of it. You're doing it!!!!!! Well done :-) Don't stop posting and getting support here. It's our pleasure :-)
This sober time around I remember to thank God several times each day for my sobriety. Let's face it, I drank more than several times a day.
Sober blessings sent out for you,
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Hi Dee I've had my sponsor call around and I'm in touch with Outreach worker who is going to meet me to discuss a plan of action.. I also have appointment with psych on Thursday, meeting tonight as well so hopefully I'll get my life on track, It's been a very scary few days but hopefully I'll learn from it and get stronger.. Thank you
I'm at work now, and I'm sure my coworkers heard my exuberant "yeah" as I got your update. I've been battling my own demons the past 24 hours, but you are truly an inspiration. You should be very proud of your 8 years. Please come on frequently and give us updates.
I was so upset at your original posting and felt so helpless I kept researching your local Cork City Ireland news to see if there was any indication of you being admitted and released as I know a lot of the local police/hospital activities do show up. You guys are definitely passionate about your soccer, that's for sure.
I was so upset at your original posting and felt so helpless I kept researching your local Cork City Ireland news to see if there was any indication of you being admitted and released as I know a lot of the local police/hospital activities do show up. You guys are definitely passionate about your soccer, that's for sure.
"Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they*will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass."
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The mental states preceding a relapse into drinking that is the crux of the problem we relapse days weeks or months prior to picking up that's we have to watch out for page 30 in the book Alcoholics Anonymous in page 37 talk about a progressive illness it gets worse never better paralleled with our sound reasoning is the insanely trivial excuse for taking that first drink which means my disease is parallel with my sound and without defense against the first drink the insane idea wins out and we are worse off than we ever were the key is you survived now pick yourself back up and learn from what happened she picking up is the last thing that happens in a relapse or attitudes and behaviors come back days weeks or months prior we let up on the spiritual programme of action we isolate slow down on eating start acting like we used to and unless the people with the meetings see us regularly there's little help they can give us find step sponsor take the steps as they are in the big book recreate your life and learn from your mistakes you can do it I know you can I'm proud of you it's not easy after 8 years to be honest so now the hard parts over the rest is up to you
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I'm at work now, and I'm sure my coworkers heard my exuberant "yeah" as I got your update. I've been battling my own demons the past 24 hours, but you are truly an inspiration. You should be very proud of your 8 years. Please come on frequently and give us updates.
I was so upset at your original posting and felt so helpless I kept researching your local Cork City Ireland news to see if there was any indication of you being admitted and released as I know a lot of the local police/hospital activities do show up. You guys are definitely passionate about your soccer, that's for sure.
I was so upset at your original posting and felt so helpless I kept researching your local Cork City Ireland news to see if there was any indication of you being admitted and released as I know a lot of the local police/hospital activities do show up. You guys are definitely passionate about your soccer, that's for sure.
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The mental states preceding a relapse into drinking that is the crux of the problem we relapse days weeks or months prior to picking up that's we have to watch out for page 30 in the book Alcoholics Anonymous in page 37 talk about a progressive illness it gets worse never better paralleled with our sound reasoning is the insanely trivial excuse for taking that first drink which means my disease is parallel with my sound and without defense against the first drink the insane idea wins out and we are worse off than we ever were the key is you survived now pick yourself back up and learn from what happened she picking up is the last thing that happens in a relapse or attitudes and behaviors come back days weeks or months prior we let up on the spiritual programme of action we isolate slow down on eating start acting like we used to and unless the people with the meetings see us regularly there's little help they can give us find step sponsor take the steps as they are in the big book recreate your life and learn from your mistakes you can do it I know you can I'm proud of you it's not easy after 8 years to be honest so now the hard parts over the rest is up to you
Just sending you a hug and some support paddy. . .
The cravings will get better as you know, and you're getting back on track quickly.
I spent some time in your beautiful city.
What about the indoor market if you need to get out?
Maybe a coffee and a stroll?
The cravings will get better as you know, and you're getting back on track quickly.
I spent some time in your beautiful city.
What about the indoor market if you need to get out?
Maybe a coffee and a stroll?
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oh thank you hawkeye, yes Cork city is beautiful but i'm afraid its also full of "beautiful pubs" which i'm screaming out for now, the cravings are strong and i'm actually afraid to go out..i know that place in the market you are referring to and the coffee is great there, i became a connoisseur of coffee in the last 8 years. I think most us alkies who have a bit of time behind us have. Hahaha, I may ring someone and see do they want to meet up and go somewhere, It probably be safer. Thanks for your thoughts.
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Just an update to you all how I'm feeling, time is dragging very slowly at the moment for me, every hour feels like a day, my body is screaming for alcohol, my anxiety is at bay though. I am sitting watching TV but pondering with the notion of getting a bottle of wine for some reason, something I haven't drank in a while. One part of my mind is saying no way and the other is saying yeah but what about that lovely fuzzy feeling.... I'm telling myself yes and what about the aftermath, play the tape through u idiot and other is saying just the one wont harm you, you know you want it, no one will need to know. I think I'm going stir crazy, now i'm thinking of taking an extra xanax to block it out but I don't want to abuse them. I have antabuse there which i really need to start on and that will put an end to any decision making. But I'm still clinging on to the thoughts of a drink , god please help me get through this, a member suggested i should go out for coffee but do you know i'm actually afraid to leave the house.
i might ring another Alkie for a chat and see will they come with me.
i might ring another Alkie for a chat and see will they come with me.
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