Dee74

I hope you find your way out Paddy.

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zombob

Hey bud. I once drank after 8 yrs in the program with sponsees, meetings to chair, the whole nine yards. It happens more often than we think. Looking back, I know I drank more and was very hard on myself because of a mixture of pride and self-righteousness. Most alcoholics Do relapse. Period. 2 with over 25 yrs did last yr in my current home-group. It happens but it doesn't need to keep on happening (one is still drinking and the other rebounded in a week). Go get a 3 day detox at least and call it a bad coupla days (rather than the self-loathing-I'm-worthless) track you are on right now. It will be difficult but sooo worth it.

aussieblue

I'm praying for you Paddy, I do hope you choose life and get some help.

Soberpotamus

I'm relieved to see you've posted.

Have you thought of what kind of help you need to get sober again, Paddy?

Professional help at this point might be the way to go.

Carver

^^^ exactly this. Glad you're safe at least. Try and get some proper treatment, and post often. Eight years sober is amazing. You can do it again

paddyjnr1

Thanks again folks, i am going to have to get my **** together..I'm too young to go out this way... Peace and love to you all.... Paddy

Dee74

You could do worse than stick around here Paddy

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Tooshabby

Yay Paddy!!! That's what we like to hear....fighting talk. Many members on this site have had long stretches of sobriety - like you - and relapsed which has caused them to feel incredibly low and desperate, but as soon as they got back into sobriety again things came right pretty quickly. If you can just tough it out for a while you will no doubt get back into your sober groove.

thomas11

Very pleased to see you post again.

paddyjnr1

It really is when we think we know it all is when problems arise, I got too complacent, I forgot the basics, too wrapped up in helping others and forgetting myself, we are only all one drink away from a drunk.. I know that now, I had a sponsee call to tell me what i need to be doing. The same words I told him 5 years ago and yet my ego kicked in once again and I said who the **** does he think he is??? but ya know what??? He was right.... I need to get back to meetings and back into service...

Tooshabby

Yes, it makes good sense to be in an environment that supports your sobriety. I think skip any temptation to beat yourself up over this, and instead just take the actions that are necessary to get yourself back on track :-)

PurpleKnight

You can do this Paddy!! SR has your back!!

maia1234

I am so glad you are ok Paddy!!

paddyjnr1

ok guys I slept last night but woke with horrific cravings and drank a can of beer, my heart is thumping, my body is craving for more, I feel sick, I rang my doc and he is going to see me at 10.15am, heres hoping i haven't burnt my bridges with him also.. I really need to stop, it's like the decision to stop has been taken from me. I feel vulnerable and very sad but i am hopeful I can get through the day... Thank you all again for your positive messages, it really means a lot to me right now...

Dee74

Let us know how you get on at the doctors

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paddyjnr1

i will of course, just leaving now and thanks for your concern...

Tooshabby

Hi Paddy. You should be getting nothing but respect and the very best of care from any medical professional. That is your right as their patient. Good luck and will be keen to hear how you get on :-)

paddyjnr1

, Hi Tooshabby, I just came back from my Doc and he was so understanding, I told him everything as truthful as any alkie in relapse could be and he prescribed me 3mg of xanax a day and wants to see me again on Friday, My heart rate has slowed down already only after .5 mgs so at least I'll have a bit of peace for a few days until my head stops racing, cravings are still there but not as bad since my heart has stopped racing, thank you all so much, I'd be lost without your advice....

paddyjnr1

Hi Dee, I just came back from my Doc and he was so understanding, I told him everything as truthful as any alkie in relapse could be and he prescribed me 3mg of xanax a day and wants to see me again on Friday, My heart rate has slowed down already only after .5 mgs so at least I'll have a bit of peace for a few days until my head stops racing, cravings are still there but not as bad since my heart has stopped racing, thank you all so much, I'd be lost without your advice....

Mountainmanbob

As one who just got 8 years of sobriety, this scares me.

You mention much regarding the Program but, no mention of God.

In early AA they were not playing with the higher power thing, they were serious.

Most relapsers in my home group come back humble and more than willing to try again.

Good luck.

Mountainman