Debbie329

When I get like this I'm absolutely uncontrollable.

JD

Debbie, show down and take a deep breath. Maybe get out of the house and go for a walk. You can get through this.

ScottFromWI

Glad you made the call. There are most likely crisis hotlines in the front of your local phone book as well if you cannot get through. Or even the ER if it gets too bad.

Debbie329

I walked to the store about 1 mile round trip and I came back even more enraged.

ScottFromWI

Call a local crisis hotline Debbie.

Debbie329

The Drs assistant called me back and that they won't add anything to my current meds cause it won't change my thought process and to call my therapist tomorrow morning for an appointment........that pisses me off too.

ScottFromWI

If you aren't able to calm down on your own and the suggestions given here aren't helping you will need to seek local care before something bad happens as you suggested earlier. The link below lists crisis hotlines by county in PA...please call the one nearest you.

http://www.parecovery.org/documents/...s_Contacts.pdf

Debbie329

I called them already....they're the ones that won't prescribe me anything new. I'll just tire myself out......they said to call them if I need too. No one is going to be able to change my thought process cause it's learned and reality based.

bullmas

Debbie329 : sound as if you maybe having a panic attack:

Point being, I feel very much the same way when I am having one, they can be very painfull but only for awhile then it slows down

As mentioned above take deep breaths a few times it does help!!!!

I realize the world and the people in it are sometimes hard to deal with, that's all.

I learn to avoid places and or people that annoy me, and if I do have to deal with them, I keep it short and to the point and leave ASAP.

Make it to day 14 for us Debbie!

Cheers

Debbie329

No I wasn't having a panic attack I was having a full fledged temper tantrum......because I don't like the reality. So I'm going to change to accommodate the reality.......what results from this change will not be my fault.....it will be my result of the reality.

Debbie329

I'm not powerless I have choices......and I'm gonna exercise them.

Debbie329

I'm no longer angry......I know what I have to do. I have no intention of drinking today. I'm not going to destroy myself because things don't match up w my desires.

Debbie329

I'm not going to call the therapist tomorrow......I have an appt next Monday with her......I'm going shopping.

Debbie329

I can't remember the last time I had such a severe reaction to reality.......must be over a year ago. It doesn't happen often but when it does it overwhelms me as you saw.........I can think of nothing but it.

Debbie329

So I had a taco and some rice a cup of decaf and then I hopped in bed and started reading a Sidney Sheldon book.......later on I'll have more tacos followed by a piece of the chocolate chip cake that I made earlier and a glass of milk.

Soberwolf

Hi Debbie you are amazing

Debbie329

Thanks SW.....I'm going to do what's in my best interest.......I had a dream last night and in it whoever I was w told me that I have to put myself first. So ......I am.

Debbie329

I'm ready to fax those applications.....it's such a pita......but it's money.......like 1,000 from yesterday's appointment.......plenty of money to go shopping.

ScottFromWI

I'd highly recommend you call the crisis line back Debbie. Skipping your appointment tomorrow is not in your best interest

advbike

I get the same way sometimes. The world is very messed up. But remember you're not your thoughts, and you don't have to act on them. Just observe them for what they are. The anger is within ourselves. Acceptance is the key.