Day One - Struggling
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Day One - Struggling
I am the drinker who only drinks at home and basically drinks till she passes out. Did this again last night and husband was livid. As he should be.
I have "tried" to quit before, but I just resort to hiding it and well for a few days and then screw up again like last night.
Today was the first time I made a conscious effort to not drink. I even had a chance to purchase it but I did not.
I am dreading the triggers. Getting ready to go and food prep and drinking while I do that is one.
I have "tried" to quit before, but I just resort to hiding it and well for a few days and then screw up again like last night.
Today was the first time I made a conscious effort to not drink. I even had a chance to purchase it but I did not.
I am dreading the triggers. Getting ready to go and food prep and drinking while I do that is one.
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Welcome Phil - it's so good to have you with us.
I understand how you feel. In the end, drinking was part of everything I did. I promise we do learn how to live in a different way - without that crutch. I remember thinking how boring everything would be. It's so much better to be free of it. Glad you found us - keep posting.
I understand how you feel. In the end, drinking was part of everything I did. I promise we do learn how to live in a different way - without that crutch. I remember thinking how boring everything would be. It's so much better to be free of it. Glad you found us - keep posting.
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Hi Phil. Yup. Been there. Drink at home. Passout or blackout. Wake up in front of the tv at 4am not remembering anything that happened that evening. Anxiety through the roof. Next morning obsessing about the next drink. A never ending cycle.
I got off that crazy train 10 months ago and haven't looked back. So can you. Stick around here. There's a ton of help if you really want it.
I got off that crazy train 10 months ago and haven't looked back. So can you. Stick around here. There's a ton of help if you really want it.
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phil, welcome to you.
i was that drinker, too.
at home, alone.
joining with others daily in cyberspace and reading tons of personal stories about the different ways people stayed sober was a huge help to me.
stick around.
i was that drinker, too.
at home, alone.
joining with others daily in cyberspace and reading tons of personal stories about the different ways people stayed sober was a huge help to me.
stick around.
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Phil,
Been there -- never thought I could enjoy cooking without the mandatory glass of wine, but I do. I really do. And you can to.
But you need to want it, and accept it. Accepting it was hardest for me; lots of whining about why me, but it has made me learn a lot about myself that my "normie" friends don't know about themselves. Hows that for positive thinking...
One foot in front of the other, together we will go...
Been there -- never thought I could enjoy cooking without the mandatory glass of wine, but I do. I really do. And you can to.
But you need to want it, and accept it. Accepting it was hardest for me; lots of whining about why me, but it has made me learn a lot about myself that my "normie" friends don't know about themselves. Hows that for positive thinking...
One foot in front of the other, together we will go...
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There are some really great links on recovery plans finding support and dealing with cravings here Phil:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
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http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
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I was doing great for the past 3 days and then temptation tonight was awful. I want to cave so bad.
Any other women out there find the balance between recovering and taking care of everyone else so very hard?
Any other women out there find the balance between recovering and taking care of everyone else so very hard?
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This is the hardest thing I ever did, Phil. And I didn't succeed the first time either. This is tough.
But not having it in the house is a blinder start. That one was crucial for me. Hiding it is not so good. It leads to shame which is a big trigger.
The good news is that you can get to a point where sobriety is actually an easier option than turning back. You know, sort of past the half way point and the nearest bank of the river is a happy life without alcohol.
You need to back yourself to win!
But not having it in the house is a blinder start. That one was crucial for me. Hiding it is not so good. It leads to shame which is a big trigger.
The good news is that you can get to a point where sobriety is actually an easier option than turning back. You know, sort of past the half way point and the nearest bank of the river is a happy life without alcohol.
You need to back yourself to win!
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You have to put you into the "caring for mix" phil
That may mean checking out early for a hot bath, or a walk, or to go to bed early and read a novel or watch an old movie.
You are the key to the family unit, so if you don't take care of you too,
the whole thing will eventually crumble.
It isn't selfish, it is forward-thinking.
You are worth it.
Post whenever you are tempted and get support.
You can do this
That may mean checking out early for a hot bath, or a walk, or to go to bed early and read a novel or watch an old movie.
You are the key to the family unit, so if you don't take care of you too,
the whole thing will eventually crumble.
It isn't selfish, it is forward-thinking.
You are worth it.
Post whenever you are tempted and get support.
You can do this
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