Day one and feeling better
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Day one and feeling better
So today October 5 is my sobriety date. I am not going to drink anymore. I will continue going to meetings and get a sponsor and follow this plan. I find now that I am suffering from Bipolar depression that I absolutely cannot drink on my new med cocktail. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise. I was depressed all weekend after a strait 6 days of not drinking and feeling good. Why? because i drank Friday, sat and Sun. i have realized that not only do i make poor decisions when i drink. But it changes my whole mood and outlook. No more. I am done.
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It did not go well. I drank last night. I don't know why. I wasn't feeling well from a new medication I am taking and I was too tired to go to the meeting. So I went to the gas station and bought a bottle of wine and drank it for no reason. So much for my sobriety date. Well today I do plan to go to a meeting. So I guess today will be a new start. sigh. I feel angry and disgusted with myself.
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You know why you drank. You were tired and not feeling well. Too tired to go to a meeting But not too tired to go to the gas station to buy wine. Next time, go to the meeting no matter how tired you are. Post here. And don't drink no matter what.
When I'm feeling down or vulnerable or out of whack, that's when I'm at risk for drinking and need to buckle down on my efforts. It takes practice but you can do it.
When I'm feeling down or vulnerable or out of whack, that's when I'm at risk for drinking and need to buckle down on my efforts. It takes practice but you can do it.
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A date is just a date -- if it was easy, we would not need this site. But you can do it; I know you can. For me, key was acceptance that I cannot drink and be the person I am meant to be. Some can, I can't. After that the hard work begins, but its work that a lot of our sober friends should do and don't because they are not forced to. How is that for positive thinking...
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I did not drink last night. I will not drink tonight. Planning on going to a meeting today and pick up a white chip and try to get a sponsor. It's been hard I am on a new cocktail of meds for my bipolar disorder and my dr and I have had to play around with it because I am not feeling the best. But I know that drinking on top of this is only going to cause me more problems.
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Originally Posted by violetflame 
I did not drink last night. I will not drink tonight. Planning on going to a meeting today and pick up a white chip and try to get a sponsor. It's been hard I am on a new cocktail of meds for my bipolar disorder and my dr and I have had to play around with it because I am not feeling the best. But I know that drinking on top of this is only going to cause me more problems.
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I have a bi-polar disorder and alcohol really messes up my moods and my mind when I drink. The two don't mix . Good luck with the new meds, sometimes it takes some time to get used to new meds and sometimes trying different ones too
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Violet, If a person messes up and drinks, don't beat yourself up over it, just start all over the next day, it will finally stick and you will beat the alcohol addiction.
My Doctor and I had to try all kinds of meds to find the right one, it was frustrating trying new ones. Some can make the Bi-Polar seem worse and start with a new med.
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My Doctor and I had to try all kinds of meds to find the right one, it was frustrating trying new ones. Some can make the Bi-Polar seem worse and start with a new med.
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Today is my day 2
Of not drinking. It's hard because I tend to like to isolate and drink. My boyfriend works until Monday so I am not going to see him all weekend. Monday I start a new job and I cannot drink because it is a very intense training. I do all sorts of stupid things when I drink like text my ex boyfriend while my new boyfriend is here in the house with me. I will not let the alcohol win this time
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