Well, I blew it
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Join Date: Mar 2014
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What's going on?
I have said before that I'm not a fan of holidays. I used to get all wrapped up in the poor me of it all, then I just started being really careful in the lead-up to holidays.
You are choosing to feel awful. Only you can choose happiness for yourself.
The alcohol makes it worse, but you know that already. Why do you keep torturing yourself?
I have said before that I'm not a fan of holidays. I used to get all wrapped up in the poor me of it all, then I just started being really careful in the lead-up to holidays.
You are choosing to feel awful. Only you can choose happiness for yourself.
The alcohol makes it worse, but you know that already. Why do you keep torturing yourself?
Adventures In SpaceTime
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: Ottawa, Canada
Posts: 5,827
Sorry to hear about the drinking ArtFriend. 
You know, for me anyways, I'm not so quick to sign on its about father's day and sadness of same which has you drinking. I'm sure you have horrible angst and sorrow about all which relates to your dad, its just I think you're made of stronger stuff. I think you're drinking for effect of the alcohol and that is pretty much it, the way I see it anyways.
The thing about justifying a drink is its always imaginary, its never actually justified. We like to say so and so is justifying this and that and so they drank, but the thing is people return to drinking for some very horrible true definitive reasons. Justifying whatever didn't even come close to why I drank when I was "trying to quit"
Anyways, my friend. You know what comes next. Quit ASAP. I believe in you, same as always (((ArtFriend)))
You know, for me anyways, I'm not so quick to sign on its about father's day and sadness of same which has you drinking. I'm sure you have horrible angst and sorrow about all which relates to your dad, its just I think you're made of stronger stuff. I think you're drinking for effect of the alcohol and that is pretty much it, the way I see it anyways.
The thing about justifying a drink is its always imaginary, its never actually justified. We like to say so and so is justifying this and that and so they drank, but the thing is people return to drinking for some very horrible true definitive reasons. Justifying whatever didn't even come close to why I drank when I was "trying to quit"
Anyways, my friend. You know what comes next. Quit ASAP. I believe in you, same as always (((ArtFriend)))
A Day at a Time
Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Grand Rapids MI
Posts: 6,435
Today I'm sad. Today I'm sober. Life gets better when we don't drink. Life gets worse when we do.
I have learned the only real choice I have is sobriety. Many have done and you can do it to
I have learned the only real choice I have is sobriety. Many have done and you can do it to
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Melbourne, Victoria Australia
Posts: 1,202
Originally Posted by RobbyRobot 
Sorry to hear about the drinking ArtFriend.
You know, for me anyways, I'm not so quick to sign on its about father's day and sadness of same which has you drinking. I'm sure you have horrible angst and sorrow about all which relates to your dad, its just I think you're made of stronger stuff. I think you're drinking for effect of the alcohol and that is pretty much it, the way I see it anyways.
The thing about justifying a drink is its always imaginary, its never actually justified. We like to say so and so is justifying this and that and so they drank, but the thing is people return to drinking for some very horrible true definitive reasons. Justifying whatever didn't even come close to why I drank when I was "trying to quit"
Anyways, my friend. You know what comes next. Quit ASAP. I believe in you, same as always (((ArtFriend)))
You know, for me anyways, I'm not so quick to sign on its about father's day and sadness of same which has you drinking. I'm sure you have horrible angst and sorrow about all which relates to your dad, its just I think you're made of stronger stuff. I think you're drinking for effect of the alcohol and that is pretty much it, the way I see it anyways.
The thing about justifying a drink is its always imaginary, its never actually justified. We like to say so and so is justifying this and that and so they drank, but the thing is people return to drinking for some very horrible true definitive reasons. Justifying whatever didn't even come close to why I drank when I was "trying to quit"
Anyways, my friend. You know what comes next. Quit ASAP. I believe in you, same as always (((ArtFriend)))
I have to eventually today start packing my stuff for rehab tomorrow. But please know I'm thinking of you, and you are very much in good hands. People who will help light your way, even as you're feeling so much it seems unbearable. xx Vic
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: Central America/Florida USA
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Sorry to hear it, Art. You're so kind and reasonable and smart - when you are sober, all of that shines through on your posts. Drinking seems to just be adding gasoline to the fire. It sounds like you want peace and serenity in your life, why not give yourself a chance?
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Join Date: May 2015
Location: California
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I hope that you poured the poison down the drain and got some rest. We all care about you, Art. Tomorrow is a new day and a new start. Sometimes I have to take it minute by minute and just make myself as busy as possible so I don't go to the store and get alcohol. I've promised myself that if I ever have the keys in my hand to go to the store to buy alcohol that I will make a post here. Lots of people are here for you and you can do this. (((Art))) 
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