accept

Oh, I hate Friday's these days!

The week has come to it's end and most people mark this with a drink (or 20).

I am bitter and jealous. I miss my Friday-drinks.. I miss how alcohol marked that the weekend had arrived.. I know that I am thinking about alcohol in a very favorable, romantic way right now.. That I am not thinking about the horrible consequences and how terrible it was and how ill I was.
But at the moment, all I can think about is how jealous I am and that I feel like I am left outside society because I can't drink.

JensDestiny

I had similar cravings, romanticizing about drinking, and generally glum feelings at around 6 months as well. I hope that you can stay strong and push through them without caving in. Try to remind yourself of how lost you were at the start of the year, end of last year. Do whatever it takes to keep your mind off of it but when you do find yourself obsessing about it... really focus on the fact that it is simply your AV talking. Sometimes, I would practice actually saying "Stop it" out loud to myself when I would start thinking like that.

Dee74

I thought that too - not surprising with the company I kept. The more I'm sober tho the more I see that most people don't spend Fridays getting themselves wasted.

I understand being bitter and jealous but it does you no good.

There's a million things you could do on a Friday night that need not involve alcohol - all you need to do is find them...the only limit is your imagination

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ForgiveMeAll

Thank you for you post accept!

rachelle77

Thank you so much for sharing your story. And a big congratulations to you, accept!

dancook99

good going!

Soberintexas007

Hi Accept,

Great job! What I took most from your story is how remarkable AA can be - it seems to save so many lives. I also started back in AA today. I enjoy its spiritual approach. Your sister must be so proud of you!

amp123

Well done Accept, hats off to you!

Fly N Buy

Glad you're here and glad we are sober!

Keep coming back!