Wholesome

I can't seem to stay sober for more than a week and every time I drink I over do it. Enough already.

I just got told that I'm borderline diabetic and I promised myself that I would stop for that reason only (like I need another one!) but within a few days I'm back at it.

I'm already in a funk for a variety of reasons so pouring beer on top is not helping.... it's making it worse.

I have just researched all the local AA meetings.

This is it. It stops today.

brynn

((Zen))....this is really good news! You've wanted to quit for so long now and I think getting some face to face support is a great idea as you move forward!

Berrybean

Good decision.

When is your first meeting? Strike while the iron's hot and grab all the support you can, both on here and at meetings.

Good on 'ya!

zjw

stick to your guns dont become another statistic. ask yoruself how bad do you want it to get before you get motivated why not get ahead of it? Diabetes is a scary game and when it can be prevented why not.

Wholesome

There is a meeting in an hour and a half a few blocks from me.

I'm gonna go to it. Not sure if I'll talk.... think for today I will just listen.

Wholesome

Yeah! I don't want diabetes. Fcuk that noise.

zjw

i was really heavy and slimmed down etc.. but my brother on the other hand he didnt change his ways (he doesnt drink tho) but he ended up with type 2. I shake my head just fix your diet etc.. but he wont do anything about it other then pop the pills the doc gave him.

doggonecarl

First the decision. Then the work.

Don't skimp on the recovery work.

SDH73

Rock on, zengirl! I'm newly back at it, too. Let's get this shizzle done!

ScottFromWI

Glad to hear it zen...i think seeking local support through meetings is a great idea.

Berrybean

Do it. Absolutely no need to talk today.

Let us know how you get on

PS Lots of threads re what to expect at your first meeting if that will help at all - you're sounding good n positive though.

Wholesome

I chickened out of going to the meeting. I went for lunch and took my dog to the beach instead.

I'm considering making a Big Plan again..... the thing is that I didn't follow through with it last time and ended up drinking again so I don't want to say the words just to let myself down again. Maybe that is AV though.....

I really do want to be free of this Goddamn obsession!

awuh1

Hope this might help Zen. AA Toronto Agnostics - AA Toronto Agnostics Home Page

Perhaps call them?

Berrybean

I chickened out of the first few meetings I tried to go to as well. Literally got there and walked past the door. Maybe give them a call so you know someone it waiting for you / ready to welcome you - they might even be able to arrange to meet elsewhere and arrive together. Walking into that first meeting IS a big deal and it is scary. Doesn't mean to say you can't do it though. Why not call the local number now and have a chat?

IfYouCanDream

I live in Toronto and if you want me to take you to a meeting we could get in touch and maybe I can keep you company if you're hesitant on your own. PM me if that would help!

Wholesome

I've actually been to AA before. It's just been a looooooooooong time. And it IS a big deal to walk through those doors. I was in such a bad place the first time I walked in that I sobbed like a little girl. It was pretty pitiful lol.

Some time over this weekend I'm going to get some courage together and hit up a meeting. There are bunch around me. The secular one is so close that I can walk to it.

I've been trying to stay sober for a long time. I feel like a broken record.

Wholesome

I've packed on the pounds since I hurt my knee. It's so easy to gain and soooooo hard to lose!! But I know people with diabetes and it's hard to manage. I don't want to have to micromanage every piece of food that I put in my mouth. Far better to change to a healthier lifestyle before it's too late.

Wholesome

Thank you!! That is very kind of you!

Wholesome

I'm on day 3. I feel good. I wasn't drinking daily again yet so there's no withdrawal.

I went out on Friday night to see Bonobo. He's a trip hop producer and DJ. I had had the tickets for months and was looking forward to it so I went even though it was in a bar. I didn't drink. I actually had a better time without it. I could dance without having to hold my drink the whole time!

I went to my first AA meeting this morning.... it was a women's meeting. I'm really glad I went. It was good to be around other sober women. I'm going to keep going. I didn't talk, I listened. Once I get more comfortable I'm sure I will start wanting to share. Plus I think listening is very appropriate for me right now.

sleepie

Hi Zenchaser! I had the same situation- prediabetes. I have improved and also need to cut out alcohol entirely so I do not become diabetic. I tweaked my diet a bit too, but I was told by the nurse practitioner that after cutting out alcohol I should return to normal. But quitting is crucial. I was testing my sugars while drinking a couple months back- it's not good!
Let's do this while we still can