3 weeks today
I don't think you're ruined for life Sleepie
I think a lot of us have had terrible things happen to us - if there's one thing I could share it's that it is possible to lay the burden of the past down.
It won't be easy or quick, but it is possible
D
I think a lot of us have had terrible things happen to us - if there's one thing I could share it's that it is possible to lay the burden of the past down.
It won't be easy or quick, but it is possible
D
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I am so sorry you are feeling so badly about things in your life right now, and that your boyfriend seems callous and indifferent and clueless... but you just hang in there, stay sober, and try and keep your head up... you absolutely deserve to be with a person who appreciates what you have to offer.
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I very much relate to your story Sleepie. Being a transgender woman, I thought that it would be "impossible" to find a guy who could accept and love me despite my unique past. But, as you know, I found that guy, but he also has his issues. But I am trying to make it work to the best of my ability because he accepts and loves me for who I am. So does it suck when he drinks in front of me knowing that I am trying to get sober? Yes, but I still love him and want to be with him because of his acceptance of me. Some people on these boards remind me of his drug use in the past, of his verbal abuse of me in the past when he was drinking, etc. etc. But I have forgiven him of these things, and, fortunately, the abuse has subsided. Deep down, I know that he cares about me and loves me. My therapist has also pointed out how close we are, just after overhearing a conversation I had with him over the phone. We tell each other each day that we love and miss one another, and that is special to me.
Anyways, I know what it feels like to believe that there is something about yourself that will forever cause you pain and grief. I just try to live one day at a time, and I forgive myself when I make mistakes because I know that I have had a life full of adversity.
Anyways, I know what it feels like to believe that there is something about yourself that will forever cause you pain and grief. I just try to live one day at a time, and I forgive myself when I make mistakes because I know that I have had a life full of adversity.
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