When *IS* Enough Finally Enough?
When *IS* Enough Finally Enough?
I've been on this forum for what, like, four years, and I still keep slipping back into my old ways.
After trying and failing again and again and again, I saw a new doctor today who prescribed me Campral, scheduled another appt. with me in two weeks in order to check in, and supplied me with more information than I probably could have ever found online in regards to one-on-one therapy (because there's obviously a bigger reason as to why I keep going back to booze), outpatient treatment and support. She spent over 1.5 hours with me, documenting and asking me pretty much everything that's ever happened in my life. AKA: I feel like she's a person who actually CARES about her patients.
I've been going to SMART meetings for the past few months, and while they're right up my alley, it obviously is taking a bit more to get me on the right track.
I walked out of that office today feeling as if I had a 1K weight taken from my shoulders.
My fingers and toes are crossed that this time I can really make it stick.
Best wishes to all of you. <3
After trying and failing again and again and again, I saw a new doctor today who prescribed me Campral, scheduled another appt. with me in two weeks in order to check in, and supplied me with more information than I probably could have ever found online in regards to one-on-one therapy (because there's obviously a bigger reason as to why I keep going back to booze), outpatient treatment and support. She spent over 1.5 hours with me, documenting and asking me pretty much everything that's ever happened in my life. AKA: I feel like she's a person who actually CARES about her patients.
I've been going to SMART meetings for the past few months, and while they're right up my alley, it obviously is taking a bit more to get me on the right track.
I walked out of that office today feeling as if I had a 1K weight taken from my shoulders.
My fingers and toes are crossed that this time I can really make it stick.
Best wishes to all of you. <3
Sounds like a very productive meeting to me Lily, glad you have found someone who understand you. It took me a long time too, and I'm still finding out things about myself even after a couple of years of sobriety that I need to work on.
Best wishes to you as well to find a solution and the motivation to make this be "the" time for you.
Best wishes to you as well to find a solution and the motivation to make this be "the" time for you.
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never give up trying it will eventually stick
"why i keep going back to booze"
I know that one for me I was self medicating then i was addicted and still self medicating. It was a vicous self defeating cycle. as the booze only made it better while i was drunk really and even that started to stop working. Actually dealing with life and whatever ailed me was just too much to bear once i sobered up so i'd just go get drunk again. The drinking made me more depressed made life even worse but I did not blame the booze. IN my mind it was never the booze.
In the end it was the booze. What started off as fun and self medicating became a vicous problem and fake solution all wrapped in one bottle.
"why i keep going back to booze"
I know that one for me I was self medicating then i was addicted and still self medicating. It was a vicous self defeating cycle. as the booze only made it better while i was drunk really and even that started to stop working. Actually dealing with life and whatever ailed me was just too much to bear once i sobered up so i'd just go get drunk again. The drinking made me more depressed made life even worse but I did not blame the booze. IN my mind it was never the booze.
In the end it was the booze. What started off as fun and self medicating became a vicous problem and fake solution all wrapped in one bottle.
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Enough is when we (individually) decide that it is, enough and stop justifying our behavior.
In my case, I have become an expert in justifying my drinking behavior which has resulted in this multi-year relapse being multi-year. (After almost 3 yrs of sobriety)
My list of "not yets" is long enough but it won't last forever if I keep drinking. (Not yet arrested, not yet embarrassed at a work event with this employer, not yet DUI, etc. (you get the picture))
Recently I've decided to realize my behavior for what it is and to take a harsher stance with myself and more factual view of my actual behavior, seeing things as they really are, being very blunt, so to speak.
I have to choose to either keep on drinking this way which is a destructive path for me, with so many looming issues, or, I can take corrective action and remain sober, resuming the life I had a few years ago that I long for.
So that is my stance, hopefully you take something positive from it.
CJ.
In my case, I have become an expert in justifying my drinking behavior which has resulted in this multi-year relapse being multi-year. (After almost 3 yrs of sobriety)
My list of "not yets" is long enough but it won't last forever if I keep drinking. (Not yet arrested, not yet embarrassed at a work event with this employer, not yet DUI, etc. (you get the picture))
Recently I've decided to realize my behavior for what it is and to take a harsher stance with myself and more factual view of my actual behavior, seeing things as they really are, being very blunt, so to speak.
I have to choose to either keep on drinking this way which is a destructive path for me, with so many looming issues, or, I can take corrective action and remain sober, resuming the life I had a few years ago that I long for.
So that is my stance, hopefully you take something positive from it.
CJ.
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