day 10
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day 10
Ten days is a long time for me. On day five I was driving to the store to buy alcohol and I didn't have the power to turn around but I had been praying that morning and threw out the day and I turned around. Similar situation on day six. But on day seven I got on my knees and was at the end of my rope and prayed fill me up GOD short version. a little bit after my head felt like it was glowing and for two days after that I was on a spiritual high. A spiritual awakening can't go into full detail of the expierence but for some odd reason I have the willingness to help others. But I had a spiritual exp a sudden dramatic one and stayed sober four years but I rested on my laurels the last year and a half and relapsed. All this means nothing if I don't nurture myself everyday. Everybody spiritual path is different turned out the GOD I hated is the GOD I fell in love with and feel His presence when I'm spiritually fit. First I quit abusing drugs then quit watching porn then didn't drink for seven days and when I surrendered all I gave up something very selfish poker gambling. I was possessed by poker read dozen of books played when ever I could even or in the black a little after ten years good anuff to beat the rake but not good anuff to make a lot off profit. I said GOD I'll give up poker anything fill me with your Spirit well I must of meant it. Porn and poker are very selfish and selfishness and self centeredness was the root of my problem. The day after I woke up and went back to bed five times like a huge wait was lifted off me. But I have to realize about Bill W and Dr Bob they helped others. Could I now write an honest fourth step fearless and thorough. Well those four years I did stay sober I did make all my amends I'm debt free but I hurt my mother buy my drinking and the only thing she said she wants from me is to stick close to GOD and stay sober. My friend was write you can't stay sober on a selfish program for to long. Step three is a action step but a decision that's has to be made everyday.
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