sjg3

I'm new here, I really want help! I keep meaning to stop drinking but then every day something stresses me out and I go straight back to a bottle of wine! Today I've had a bottle and a half (which is pretty normal for me) tonight I can't stop shaking and I'm scared! I'm completely sober, had my last drink at about 7pm but I suffer from emetophobia bad (phobia of vomiting) and I've read people can throw up with the trembles and withdrawal! Is that actually common?? I'm so so so scared that's want I'm most scared of!! Can anyone chat to me please?

ScottFromWI

Welcome back Sjg3. I would recommend seeing a dr or a counselor if you are having bad withdrawal symptoms..they can be dangerous.

greens

Hi and welcome to sober recovery . You are not alone

greens

I have no experience with withdrawal to the extent you are talking ( I only experienced shaked ) but I am here to talk, if that helps

sjg3

Thank you both for your posts I wasn't actually expecting any replies! Thank you! I'm so ready to stop, I need to! I'm 22 I've been to meetings in the past and heard stories of people who have suffered for many years and I don't want to go through what they have. I'm just so scared of the sickness with stopping!

sjg3

Thank you greens, that means a lot to me.... I mean I never throw up from drinking anyway, and I've had terrible hangovers in the past and never thrown up with them, my shaking now isn't actually terribly bad, it's just scaring me as it's the first time I've experienced it and I've been reading horror stories on the internet :/

ScottFromWI

If you are scared of physical symptoms, you need to see a doctor - we cannot diagnose you here. It's certainly scary but you will feel a lot better if you see someone who can check you out and calm you down.

sjg3

Oh yes I understand! I will definitely speak to my doctor tomorrow anyway but I'm in the UK it's nearly 11pm and was just looking for assurance and hear to others' experiences while I'm in a blind panic lol

greens

Yes, I would recommend searching medical help. I can relate I was never a big puker but I binge drank and get the worst hangovers . It took some time, and soMe work , but I don't do that anymore. I'm proud of you for posting on here

greens

Do whatever you need to get through the night and know that it gets better

sjg3

I'm happy to hear you no longer go through that greens.... I'm determined to only have half of what I usually drink tomorrow (I don't want to cut it out straight as I'm epileptic anyway and also read about seizures with withdrawal) and take it from there, I have no idea how I'm going to cope!!!

Soberwolf

Hi Sjg welcome to SR

sjg3

Thanks soberwolf I'm going to have a read through some other threads now and see what I can learn ! A bit scared!!

greens

That sounds like a good idea. I would suggest reading on the newcomers thread, I think there's a post of things to do (activities ) to stay sober.
I'm not sure if this'll help, but in my area there is a 1 800 number , it is technically the suicide hot line BUT yiu do not need to be suicidAL to call or get help. I've called it late at night when I am triggered (ptsd ) and dont want to bother ppl. They just talk to me.
I'm not sure if u mean cope with the Withdrawal or with managing Life without alcohol. Either way, there r resources for us.

sjg3

I just read a couple of threads and most were really positive and encouraging.... But reading of other people's withdrawals also made my panic worse (even though I didn't actually see any mention vomit)! I've taken an anti anxiety medication tonight I'm hoping will kick in soon and then I can sleep!
The weird thing is on a morning I always feel fine and 9 times out of 10 I don't even fancy a drink... It's just habit that I go to the fridge, or if I pass a shop I call in to buy a bottle automatically! That's the main thing I will find hard I think (after the withdrawals)!
I have a lot going on in my home life at the minute, money issues, housing issues, family issues and my grandma only has days left to live.... When all these things get on top of me I don't know how to cope or what to do to take my mind off things! Aaarghhh!

greens

That's a lot to handle at one time. I'm glad you're reaching out for help and talking about ut. Have you looked into low cost counseling or anything of that sort? Often it can be covered by insurance too

Dee74

hi and welcome sjg

Glad you're seeing a Dr - they should be able to set your mind at ease.

I know you have a lot on, but I think it's a good idea to start thinking of other healthier ways to deal with stress - the more alternatives you have to choose from, the better

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Hevyn

I'm glad you posted sjg. I wish I could go back to being 22 and stop, the way you plan to. My whole life would have turned out so differently.

I hope you can get some sleep. I drank to calm myself down, but I found out it made my anxiety so much worse. It really isn't an answer, and doesn't help us cope - it does just the opposite. I think posting here will help - we are with you.

sjg3

Thank you all so much for your lovely support! I definitely feel a tiny bit more confident about bringing the drinking to an end now! (Just a teeny bit)!
I do suffer with anxiety and depression (diagnosed before I started drinking) I know wine does the complete of helping me but it's so hard to break the habit! I'm also in a vicious cycle with my emetophobia.... When I start to feel nauseous I have a drink - the method in my madness is that if I was actually 'ill' my stomach wouldn't handle a drink and I would automatically throw up, so when I survive the drink I'm like 'oh phew I'm fine that's one less thing to worry about' only then I start to feel nauseous again from the drinking! Arghhh! So I guess on top of addiction therapy, anxiety, depression, I also need phobia help!! Lol. I feel so helpless right now that I'm actually sat laughing at myself, how did I end up being soooo messed up at 22!!!! Lol.

greens

Lol you're not as "messed up" as you think ...
I had a friend tell me that once and it took a long time for me to believe ut.
Yes, there are a lot of issues to be addressed BUT depression and anxiety and phobias are more common than people realize, imo