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huge fear
Hey all, I haven't posted in a while and I need some advice. I have been going to AA for about a month now, but I had a relapse this weekend. I feel so utterly terrible about it that I feel I must tell my sponsor the truth. My heart would break if she fired me over it. Anyone have any experience here? I'm so scared...
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Welcome back realizingtruth. I am not active in AA, but I know that no one is perfect and that many of us drank even after starting plans or being sober for a while. I would certainly just come clean with your sponsor - honesty is a key part of the relationship. I doubt you will be "fired", in fact I would guess you will receive support and also help in figuring out how to make sure it doesn't happen again.
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I sincerely hope that is the case. She and I have such a close relationship already, I can't even imagine how it's going to feel telling her. I know everyone makes mistakes, but I feel more shame than I can remember in a very long time.
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Originally Posted by realizingtruth 
I sincerely hope that is the case. She and I have such a close relationship already, I can't even imagine how it's going to feel telling her. I know everyone makes mistakes, but I feel more shame than I can remember in a very long time.
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Originally Posted by realizingtruth
I have a meeting with her in an hour and I plan on coming clean. Thank you for the advice, Scott. I really appreciate it.
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hey guys, you were right. not only was I not fired, I had a beautiful, healing experience with my sponsor. she was more than understanding, said basically I'm stuck with her unless I decide otherwise and that she loves me no matter what. what a huge relief! I am so grateful. thank you for the encouragement!
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Originally Posted by realizingtruth
hey guys, you were right. not only was I not fired, I had a beautiful, healing experience with my sponsor. she was more than understanding, said basically I'm stuck with her unless I decide otherwise and that she loves me no matter what. what a huge relief! I am so grateful. thank you for the encouragement!
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Originally Posted by Justbreathe1980
Glad to hear it went well. I guess you and me are in the same boat in getting sober again. We can do it!
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