BlackCoffee711

Finally at a point where I actually am hopeful about long-term sobriety. This is the lifestyle I want, I need. I need if I am to truly live. Alcohol simply taints everything in life that I touch. Sneaky little bastard. How frequently I thought I could slip out of the grasp of a painful existence by slipping into a vodka bottle. Nice try. Yup, the pain is still there, only it seems to worsen every time I head to the liquor store. I am about a week shy of 30 days. Wish it was 6 months, but it is not. Have to start somewhere. I have been in and out of the program for years, holding on to a part of me that thinks she could still use. I have given up on that part of me - it doesn't deserve to survive. Period. Sure, I am often terrified of facing anything in life which causes discomfort. Sobriety is indeed going to be a challenge, and at times it may even be scary. But I am even more afraid of what will happen if I keep drinking....With a bottle in my hands I don't even stand a chance.

zjw

Sure, I am often terrified of facing anything in life which causes discomfort.

thats all that it is is discomfort the same discomfort you'd expierience from any situation in life if you chose to drink too. Only less if you dont have drinking as a problem too.

Gotta face the discomfort one way or another its better without the booze.

Good job!

Soberwolf

Keep logging in surround yourself with support think of ways to strengten your sobriety

Your doing really well BC

thisisme

Your post is eerily similar, almost a copy of one I made 30 days in about 9 years ago.
I hope your revelation carries you as mine did to a better life.
I'll add this(I found it 30 days in) and it continues to inspire me today.


The Evil of Alcohol.



I am more powerful than the combined armies of the world;

I have destroyed more men than all the wars of the all the nations;

I have caused millions of accidents and wrecked more homes than all the floods, tornadoes and hurricanes put together;

I am the worlds' slickest thief.

I steal billions of dollars each year;

I find my victims among the rich and poor alike,

I am relentless, insidious, unpredictable;

I bring sickness, poverty and death;

I give nothing and take all;

I am your worst enemy;

I am alcohol.


RIP Raheem Bath.

IOAA2

Hi.
In the beginning I had a lot of trouble with my thinking processes, why not? I was drinking!

Instead of the hows and whys I’ll recommend doing the things you don’t want to do!
I and many did/do and life became much more manageable.
KEEP COMING worked for me also.

BE WELL