Amanda88432

Back in November I realized how bad my drinking had become. I've always struggled with one addiction or another, so it wasn't much of a surprise when I realized I had yet another problem to overcome (one that I created myself, just like the rest). I found this forum and it really helped me cut down my drinking a lot. Long story short, I've fallen off the wagon pretty hard for the past 4 months. Wake up at 6 a.m., work til' 6 p.m., and then come home and drink myself silly until I fall asleep. Then do it all over again the next day. That's pretty much been my daily routine for way too long.
Today is day 1 of hopping back on the wagon. Hopefully I won't fall off this time.

least

I hope the support here can help you get sober for good.

SoberLeigh

Welcome back, Amanda.

Have you been doing anything in support of your sobriety? Why not commit to coming to SR every day and reading, posting and responding to posts? It helps to keep your sobriety front and center.

Glad that you are back.

Soberwolf

Nice to meet you Amanda

Hevyn

Amanda, I'm glad you're here to give your sober life another chance. We know you can do it.

Amanda88432

Thank you everyone. It's nice to be back.

pulltight

Welcome back!

seemedrink

Such a pretty girl. Don't do this to yourself, it's not worth it.

MariahGayle

Glad your here Amanda!

Amanda88432

It's nice to meet you too, Soberwolf

Amanda88432

Thank you I plan to visit this forum often. It's time to pull myself back together.

Tonks

Welcome back to the community Stick with us!

MelindaFlowers

Hey Amanda,

That was my schedule too. I'd go to work like the good employee and then drink heavily every night. I didn't even know what work was like without a splitting headache and flushed face. One thing you have to look forward to.... Work becomes so much easier! I found myself thinking this everyday. Jesus, my job wasn't such a pain like I thought. Everything is easier in sobriety. You can have this too. After a while you feel comfortable in your own skin and a sense of ease.

zjw

welcome my cycle was the same. work get off work at 5pm started drinking till I passed out then i'd wake up and do it all over again. I guess I had a routine. It got worse for me tho. I started drinking earlier to calm my nerves and started drinking on the job once in a while to help calm myself down. I was ok with that but in the back of my head I was concerned that my drinking might be going to a new level. I also was concerned about the panic and anxiety i was having etc..

I new someting had to change but I did not know what. I blamed a lot of other things before I decided to give not drinking a try. and bingo it did the trick.

Amanda88432

Exactly! I would wake up every morning feeling like total crap, and blame everything else in my life rather than my drinking. By the end of my work day I would be so ancy to get home and have a drink (or 10).

pulltight

This was me, I lived to get home and drink. The best thing I ever done has been stopping that cycle.

Jen73

Welcome back Amanda

Here some things help me keep sober and strong, this might help you too..

Listen to what the relapsing addicts keep preaching. Then do the opposite.

Make a zero tolerance policy with yourself concerning relapse. Don’t even allow your mind to go there.

Use mindfulness and a heightened awareness to overcome ego. Use meditation to overcome self.

Practice forgiveness. Forgive all your past transgressors. Forgive yourself. You must do this to get long term relief from resentment.

inthekeyofg

I've returned (to the community and sobriety) again as well... I know how you feel. I can't keep doing this to myself. ! Months of hard work and sobriety and then... binge drinking. Why?
Anyways, be strong and reach out!

Amanda88432

Today is day 2 back on the wagon. As it gets closer to night I want a drink more and more. But so far as long as I'm staying busy it isn't too bad.

Soberwolf

Congrats Amanda