sleepie

Hi all, happy Saturday

I appreciate your help yesterday in my sobriety. Today and tomorrow will be very difficult. I was thinking about and wanting alcohol as soon as I got up this morning.
My job has me very, very stressed out. I am not yet in a position where I can just go get another job. It's my boss that makes it a living hell. If I can hold out until he leaves for 2 weeks next week, at least I will have that small break from his craziness.

He is a work place bully. Did you ever have one?

I am reaching out here to ask will you please help me not to drink this weekend?

I am getting out for some errands later. I do have a BF who treats me very well. I may have some "retail therapy" this afternoon as I am somewhat owed a B-Day present by Bf. So I have that to look forward to.

But it's still going to be very hard because I woke up with a dread in the pit of my stomach over Monday and crazy boss.

Yes, I am telling myself he is not worth drinking over. That I should be decent to myself.

But you know how that all goes out the window when you feel bad for extended periods of time.

RDBplus3

I can identify with the 'Bully Boss' - mine can be a Jackass from Hell.
His favorite sayings, "I hope I didn't tick (whoever) off, but actually I don't give a damn, because I'm the Boss".... and "I'm the smartest guy I know".

The 12 Step program of AA has given me a framework where-in I can now live in reasonable 'Serenity' in the midst of 'Living Life on Life's Terms'. God is actually doing for me what I could not do on my own, and my state of mind is NOT determined by the onslaught of Life coming at me.

It did not come easy, I STRUGGLED for a long time, but the MIRACLE did happen...and I KNOW it can for you sleepie....HANG IN THERE....and pray.

RDBplus3...Sober and FREE...and I KNOW you can be

sleepie

Thanks RDB

biminiblue

Hey, sleepie, why don't you join in on the Weekender thread? There's a new one every Thursday. Read through this one and join in! It's a great group and will entertain you if nothing else.

link
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...march-1-a.html

Also, why not make a commitment in the 24 Hour Connections thread:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...part-42-a.html

You can join in your Class thread, too - if you haven't already.

SoberLeigh

^^^^ The Weekender thread is great; I think that I have seen you there before before but I might be mistaken. It is a very active thread, lively and with lots of support.

Enjoy your retail therapy today.

Stick with your sober plan; it is difficult at first but it gets better and easier with time.

sleepie

Thanks I joined the weekender thread

PurpleKnight

For me having a hangover Monday morning was worse, drinking away the stress would not drink away Monday, and having a hangover would make dealing with work more difficult.

Alcohol doesn't fix anything in my experience, it is simply a short term escape, not a long term solution.

Hang in there and stay close to SR!! We're here for you!!

SoberLeigh

How is your day progressing, sleepie?

Dee74

Wishing you strength this weekend sleepie

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You can make this a successful sober weekend!

trachemys

Definitely get in the Weekender thread. We sometimes run them on through Monday just cause it's fun and uplifting.

Hevyn

Hi sleepie. I have been through the bully boss thing. It was humiliating, but (like you) I had to stick with my job until I could find something better. It was at a time when people were lucky to have jobs, so I felt obligated to stay. Unlike you, I didn't stay sober. Drinking, being hungover & shaky, was so much worse than facing the situation clear headed. It only seems like an answer. I'm glad you're here to talk things over with us. You don't need the anxiety that drinking would cause. You can do this!

zjw

I normally get that dread on sunday evenings. I liken it to being a kid and the next day is your first day of school at a new school. thats how i feel most sunday evenings about having to face work on monday. How do i deal with it? Well its taken time but i tell myself to STOP that its not monday yet and dont allow it to ruin your sunday. This also happens to me int he middle of the night or other times that its NOT work hours and I also again tell myself STOP do ireally want to allow this to ruin MY time? it already ruins 40 hours a week do i really wanna donate more of my time to it? Do i LIKE feeling that way? cause if I allow it to get me I am validating that and saying yes I must like feeling that way.

All that helps me anyhow.

When your getting your retail therapy think about the cash your saving by not drinking maybe at some point it'll be time to reward yourself for the sober time you got .

sleepie

Hi all I am back from being out for the afternoon.

Well one bad habit replaced another, I ate a lot of things I should not have.

No drinking though.

I did have a very nice afternoon out. I walked around my old neighborhood with BF and showed him some things I liked.

SoberLeigh

Glad you enjoyed your afternoon, sleepie, and didn't drink.

Hope you can avoid worrying about the food for a while - one battle at a time.

trachemys

BTW, sleepie, you don't drink do you?

sleepie

Not today Trachemys

trachemys

Good.

zjw

good job sounds like your keeping sobriety priority #1 thats right where it needs to be!.

Hevyn

Glad you distracted yourself and made it through. Knew you could.