sarahlou87

Just 4 days in... I go to meetings, talk to AA and SR people daily, do AA reading daily.. and suddenly I'm wiped. I want to just go to sleep tonight at like 7pm and sleep 12 hours. There's a daytime meeting tomorrow which will be perfect and it's just around the corner, but there is a meeting I'd originally planned to go to tonight further away .. I feel I'm failing if I don't go. Like people will believe I'm not committed.

Esspee

It doesn't matter what other people think. Your body is telling you you need rest. You are still looking after yourself.

Onmyway15

I've stopped drinking multiple times over the last decade or so and I was always so tired, for days. It's part of the withdrawal process. So sleep away and don't be so hard on yourself. Try to eat healthy. Lots of water and take plenty of vitamin D and B12. Definitely get to meetings....they will energize you for sure

doggonecarl

Both mind and body must heal. Sleep is not slacking off on your recovery. You'll know when you are being lax, believe me. And it will have little to do with rest.

tomsteve

Yes, getting into the solution and learning a new way of living is mentally and emotionally exhaustive. And I'm glad yer exhausted as it tells me youre working on you- learning what makes you tick. Yer seeing a lot in a short time,too.
Something to remember is that ya spent many years living the way you did. It's going to take T.I.M.E. for the program to become a working part of your life, but the program promises it WILL happen if you go about it with half the zeal you. Were in the habit of showing When you were getting another drink.

Here's what I'm thinking about the meeting tonite.
What would be the motive for going? To show people you are committed or to get more help? Would it be wise to drive all that way while exhausted?
What you could do tonight is pick up the phone and call a couple women in recovery.
Then open yer big book and read.
You can also listen to speakers online or even look up grapevine- our meetings in print.
And pray!
The ONLY way you can fail is by picking up the next drink.

Personally I'm quite impressed with ya. Yer very open to learning, willing, AND you've been honest about what's going on in your melon.
Good on ya!!!

aasharon90

Remember that this is your recovery. You
are learning to remain sober one day at a
time for YOU. YOU don't need to please
others. At the days end, you are responsible
for your own sobriety.

We cant please everyone. There is just no
way. Everyone in recovery and life have
their own lifes agenda. Not everyone has
the same schedules in life. Your schedule
each day belongs to you.

You have to find that balance between
your job, your sobriety, your rest, your
health and happiness.

As a mom myself back in early recovery
with 2 little ones and a marriage at about
7 yrs., I had to work it all. I had to make
sure my little ones got to school, grocery
shop, school activities, etc all while learning
to remain sober.

I made a many many noon meetings while
I had time to myself. Before my little girl
started school, she came with me to some
of those noon meetings and it wasn't a problem.

That gave her a chance to see where mommy
went to my many AA meetings. I did whatever
I needed to do incorporating a meeting to complete
my daily chores and obligations. I did what
I needed to do for me, because I later learned
that no one will worry more about my recovery
and staying sober than I would.

Its not that folks didn't care or don't care
about me, its just that fact that people have
their own lives to live and they cant live it
for me.

Take care of you and if you cant make it to
a face to face meeting, besure to connect here
to SR or have another recovery lifeline to
connect to for emergencies.

Relax and enjoy ur recovery life.

tomsteve

What aasharon said,too!!!!

She's got "IT"

Soberwolf

What Sharon said, Sarah your doing exellent i completly agree with all the posters

Well done Sarah

MidnightCowboy

I have been exhausted since about the third day of my quit about two month's ago and I am slowly building up my stamina.

Prior to quitting drinking I would work a 12 hour day start drinking as soon as I got home and go to sleep at midnight on the weekends I would go out and party until they closed the bar and then continue onto an after party etc. Never once while I was drinking was I tired.

Now I work a full day come home and I'm out about 2-3 hours later. The first week I was in bed almost an hour after I got home. I assume its my body trying to heal itself from all the damage I have done to it from years of drinking.

Take it easy on yourself and make sure you get some sunshine. So far the sun, water and oranges have been my savior. Also make sure that you get some kind of good carbs in your body with fruits and veggies. I noticed when I quit I was craving sugar all the time having some apple/oranges around helps tons!

Hang in there! it gets better!

biminiblue

I slept a lot that first month. Some nights I'd wake up at 3 and not go back to bed, but it always evened out - the next day I'd sleep 12 hours. You are recovering from a very toxic condition. Sleep! Eat!

The thing about people not thinking you're committed enough? People are thinking about themselves and their own recovery. One of the things we tend to do is think it's all about us, when it isn't. They won't notice what you do. No one is going to lose sleep over your recovery. This is your life, do it your way. If you want to go to three meetings a day, go for it. If one a week is all you're interested in, that is your choice. If you feel you need a sponsor, get one. If you don't, don't get one. If you want to talk in a meeting, do it. If not, pass.

This is your life to live.

SoberLeigh

^^^^ This.

Eddiebuckle

Sarahlou,

Early recovery can be rough, our stamina and emotions can be pretty unpredictable. Pay attention to what your body is telling you, don't try to become superhuman in your recovery - that's just as dangerous as hanging around bars for us.

Great work, keep posting!