Year 2 in the books.
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Year 2 in the books.
Completed year 2 of abstinence from alcohol. Now onto year 3 and many more after that. There are many times when I post on here a books worth of stuff but right now I'm pretty humble in my status. This is my new reality. These days I can go a long time without even thinking of alcohol when before it would always be on my mind. I'll be at a restaurant or out and people will drink and I won't even bat an eye. Sure, there are times when I feel nostalgic for booze but those are memories of a time that is no longer there. Abstaining from alcohol means moving forward and to cease living in the past. That was my biggest hurdle. I wanted the days of drinking at a bar in the middle of the day to always be there for me. I wanted to have those couple beers after work for the rest of my life. But it was very obvious in my final year of drinking that it just wasn't the same. It was over. The future is more important than the past.
One year ago yesterday I didn't want to drink. I wasn't planning on it at all. But I was compelled to. I didn't want to stop at the bar on my way home but I did anyways. I didn't want to stop at the liquor store and pick up more beer but I did anyways. I didn't want to chug it before my wife and kids got home but I did anyways. I didn't want to go back to the liquor store and get more with my daughter because my wife was gone but I did anyways. I didn't want to drive drunk with her in her kid seat but I did anyways. I didn't want to chug that one in the bathroom while she was crying for my attention outside the door but I did anyways. I didn't want to drink but I couldn't stop once I started. I didn't want to believe this was happening to me but it was. I couldn't stop once I started. I couldn't start anymore. This is my reality. 2 years ago today I accepted it. I'm not going to drink today. I know my reality. And I love my reality. I love being sober.
Thank you
One year ago yesterday I didn't want to drink. I wasn't planning on it at all. But I was compelled to. I didn't want to stop at the bar on my way home but I did anyways. I didn't want to stop at the liquor store and pick up more beer but I did anyways. I didn't want to chug it before my wife and kids got home but I did anyways. I didn't want to go back to the liquor store and get more with my daughter because my wife was gone but I did anyways. I didn't want to drive drunk with her in her kid seat but I did anyways. I didn't want to chug that one in the bathroom while she was crying for my attention outside the door but I did anyways. I didn't want to drink but I couldn't stop once I started. I didn't want to believe this was happening to me but it was. I couldn't stop once I started. I couldn't start anymore. This is my reality. 2 years ago today I accepted it. I'm not going to drink today. I know my reality. And I love my reality. I love being sober.
Thank you
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