sleepie

I am not in a good place and am a hair away form having a drink and blowing over five weeks of abstinence from alcohol.

Bailey3

Don't do it. Remember why it is you want to stop. Think about the consequences if you do drink. Go for a walk. Listen to some music. Scream if you have too. The urge will pass. Just don't drink.

airwick

Don't you dare

Every time I see a post from you I get a smile on my face. Not because of your discouragement or your thoughts of drinking, I don't want you to drink.......just keep putting it off.....minute by minute....hour by hour....day by day....one step at a time.

Now back to why I always smile when I see your post.

Sleepie....Cinderella.....that always puts a smile o my face.

Just like you seem to do

Remember: Don't Drink

MIRecovery

The urge will pass. Think of all of reasons you quit. For me there is nothing like an AA meeting or talking to another alcoholic

SoberLeigh

No, don't do it, sleepie; play the tape forward to the agony of the morning.

Good job coming to talk about it.

PurpleKnight

Thoughts are only that, we don't need to act on them!!

What is alcohol going to fix? from experience my life always got worse when I went back to alcohol, it's not a sustainable solution longterm solution to anything.

A hangover isn't going to help tomorrow if you're at work at the new job!!

Stay close to SR!!

sleepie

I keep thinking, what will three hurt at this point?

And I try to tell myself I can't do anything good if I drink.

But I have bad grey matter, so I can't anyway.

So besides my own pain I cannot think of a reason why not to.

Especially on days like this where all my shortcomings are right in my face.

tomsteve

Type more,sleepie. Knowing more of what's goin on in yer melon can help us help you.
Maybe tell us what pain and shortcomings are up front for ya?
And don't let that thought control your actions. A drink wont help.

tomsteve

A reason not to is because it will take longer for the miracle to happen

sleepie

I have undiagnosed learning disorder. Every time I think I can "do this", no matter what it is- I mess it up. Basic things in life just don't click for me. I am just tired of it. It's been a long hard road.

aasharon90

We drink or we drank for all sorts of
reasons. Mainly because some certain
person, place or thing isn't or wasn't
quite going the way we want them to go.

Finding a more effective method to use
before we pick up a drink like coming here
to SR and talk about it, or someone you
feel confortable talking to that is in recovery
can help avoid making a terrible mistake
by drinking that will be filled with remorse
and shame. Right?

Talking and sharing what bothers us is
pretty effective in recovery because no
one every has to go thru anything alone
in life again. And you never have to carry
those heavy burdens on ur shoulders by
urself.

Hevyn

Sleepie - I've had similar troubles all my life, & I once thought alcohol was a great answer for calming myself down. As you already know, it does nothing to help us cope & only adds to our anxiety. It doesn't do for us what we think it will - and never can. I'm really glad you wanted to talk it over here. We care about you.

DuhDave

Sleepie...I have made 17 Days sober with YOUR help and encouragement !

Now, I ask only 1 day from you. Just dont drink...today.

From here on...you know what to do ...and what NOT to do.

DD

sleepie

Thanks guys... I think The urge has passed? So stressed. I have nervous tics it's embarrassing. They come out when I am stressed out. BF politely looks the other way. My parents put me on halidol when I was ten over it. I'm just having a sad day.

Bostonsportsfan

I have dyslexia sleepie, so I understand. I struggled in middle/HS because of it and I was afraid to admit I even had dyslexia because I didn't want people to think I was stupid. I always had an idea something was wrong, but didn't want anyone else to know. There's nothing wrong with having a learning disability and I know this now. I didn't even know I had dyslexia until I already graduated HS, and I finally put the pieces together. They were always there, but I didn't want to put them together. Dyslexia has nothing to do with how intelligent I am and I'm never going to use it as an excuse to hold me back. Don't let your learning disability define you or hold you back.

SoberLeigh

We are with you, Sleepie. Starting a new job is stressful; it is normal to be a little on edge. The stress will level off.

Dee74

Drinking won't change anything sleepie... but action just might.
Do hang in there.

D

LDT

Hey Sleepie...... Have you read about Urge Surfing? You can google .

I'm glad you rode out the urge. You aren't alone. Some days are better than other. That's when you need to be nice to yourself.... Do something special just for YOU!

We care!

zjw

I agree with airwick on this one. I like your posts. your just going to go backwards if you drink. I know it sometimes semes like we aint maken any progress but that's no excuse to go backwards. sure 2 steps forward 1 step back heck sometimes 10 steps back but don't take the step back into the bar. Its ok if things move along slowly in there own time on there terms.

silentrun

I had a moment like that today getting of the cigs. Sometimes I just get depressed and tell myself what's the point. It's a trick. Feeling like that is pretty normal in these situations and not a reason to give up. Sad or depressed let's keep moving forward. I am glad you came here and got through it.