Hitting bottom
Left the bottle behind 4/16/2015
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Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: NC
Posts: 1,416
Well, I'm back from rehab. I can see now that it is basically a process of gaining the tools to move forward, and most of the real progress is made by working with a sponsor.
I avoided AA for the majority of my drinking career, but I've run out of options, it seems. I'm willing to give this a shot...take a leap of faith. I know I don't ever want to have to end up in rehab again, and definitely not detox. Many, or most, of the guys I met along the way were repeaters. Many had already been at the same clinic before, some multiple times.
Maybe it's the age gap, I'm not sure, but I think I'd rather hit myself in the head with a hammer than to have to go through that again! It wasn't a negative experience, per se, but it disturbed me emotionally to admit to myself that I really had gotten that bad.
Anyway, it's good to be back on familiar ground, and I look forward to actually following a program and making the necessary changes to behaviors that usually led me back to the bottle again.
I avoided AA for the majority of my drinking career, but I've run out of options, it seems. I'm willing to give this a shot...take a leap of faith. I know I don't ever want to have to end up in rehab again, and definitely not detox. Many, or most, of the guys I met along the way were repeaters. Many had already been at the same clinic before, some multiple times.
Maybe it's the age gap, I'm not sure, but I think I'd rather hit myself in the head with a hammer than to have to go through that again! It wasn't a negative experience, per se, but it disturbed me emotionally to admit to myself that I really had gotten that bad.
Anyway, it's good to be back on familiar ground, and I look forward to actually following a program and making the necessary changes to behaviors that usually led me back to the bottle again.
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Join Date: Jun 2014
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Originally Posted by GetMeOut 
I've already joined 2 AA groups in my area and have a sponsor I speak to almost daily. He's actually driving me 3 1/2 hours away to the detox facility and keeping an eye on my house while I'm away. I've always avoided AA like the plague, but I have to admit, I am beginning to enjoy not being alone with this. I went to a meeting Tuesday night and it was packed! I don't usually like large crowds, but with all of us having this illness in common, it was a very pleasant feeling.
Sounds like you're off to a great start.
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