5 years today!
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5 years today!
Holy Moley...I almost feel like that can't be right! 
I'll retell my story since I don't post that often (though I read every day)...
I drank Irishly my entire adult life...that is to say, with both fists...it was never a problem, and in fact, for 20 years, I prided myself on my ability to drink anyone under the table and get up for work everyday....
Around 2000 I started drinking a little harder...it was around the time I quit smoking (I don't know if there's any relation...)...but, I was perfectly functional, if often hung-over...in 2007, I was had a run of bad luck with several businesses downsizing or going out of business, I was laid off several times over a year...I got a DUI taking a drunk friend home during this time period...I've suffered from a clinical depression my entire life...there's no doubt that I'd been medicating myself with alcohol...but the last layoff was it for me...and I had a nervous breakdown...I couldn't leave the house (except for booze, 'natch...but, I'd typically cry the whole mile to the store)...and my drinking went epic...round the clock...I was drinking, drunk or withdrawing....for a year and a half...all I did was drink and think of how to kill myself...
I'd been drunk for a couple of days when New Year's Eve 2009-2010 came...we went to a friends house, but I only remember about 5 minutes of the night....I do remember waking up on my couch around 2am and starting to drink again until I passed back out...and then, all the next day and night...On Jan. 2, I was over it...I don't know why or what happened psychically, but I was over it...I bought a box of wine to think on it, and asked my wife if she thought that I should stop drinking...yes...yes she did....for how long? "I'd say at least a year", she answered...I had no idea that she had started a countdown to how much longer she'd stick around....it was another month, if you're curious...ain't that some timing for me to have a moment of clarity?
So, I drank my box of wine...5 liters...that's just under 7 bottles, if you don't have a calculator...I woke up the next day feeling bad, but knowing it was the last time I had to feel that way if I chose...and I withdrew like a all hell...sick...sweating buckets...shaking to the point of not being able to hold anything at all...turning the house upside down searching for the source of non-existent music...
And it was hard...and I worked hard...and I still do, and it still is sometimes....
But, it's been 5 solid years...
I'll retell my story since I don't post that often (though I read every day)...
I drank Irishly my entire adult life...that is to say, with both fists...it was never a problem, and in fact, for 20 years, I prided myself on my ability to drink anyone under the table and get up for work everyday....
Around 2000 I started drinking a little harder...it was around the time I quit smoking (I don't know if there's any relation...)...but, I was perfectly functional, if often hung-over...in 2007, I was had a run of bad luck with several businesses downsizing or going out of business, I was laid off several times over a year...I got a DUI taking a drunk friend home during this time period...I've suffered from a clinical depression my entire life...there's no doubt that I'd been medicating myself with alcohol...but the last layoff was it for me...and I had a nervous breakdown...I couldn't leave the house (except for booze, 'natch...but, I'd typically cry the whole mile to the store)...and my drinking went epic...round the clock...I was drinking, drunk or withdrawing....for a year and a half...all I did was drink and think of how to kill myself...
I'd been drunk for a couple of days when New Year's Eve 2009-2010 came...we went to a friends house, but I only remember about 5 minutes of the night....I do remember waking up on my couch around 2am and starting to drink again until I passed back out...and then, all the next day and night...On Jan. 2, I was over it...I don't know why or what happened psychically, but I was over it...I bought a box of wine to think on it, and asked my wife if she thought that I should stop drinking...yes...yes she did....for how long? "I'd say at least a year", she answered...I had no idea that she had started a countdown to how much longer she'd stick around....it was another month, if you're curious...ain't that some timing for me to have a moment of clarity?
So, I drank my box of wine...5 liters...that's just under 7 bottles, if you don't have a calculator...I woke up the next day feeling bad, but knowing it was the last time I had to feel that way if I chose...and I withdrew like a all hell...sick...sweating buckets...shaking to the point of not being able to hold anything at all...turning the house upside down searching for the source of non-existent music...
And it was hard...and I worked hard...and I still do, and it still is sometimes....
But, it's been 5 solid years...
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FANTASTIC! Thanks for telling us about you, SixStringZen. We could certainly do with more of that kind of inspiration around here. Next time you post, don't wait so long. Onward!
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