Two solid weeks...
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Two solid weeks...
Down the drain. I caved on Christmas Eve, and had my last beer this morning. No more booze left in the house, and I'm not getting more. This season is hard, and I have more on my plate than usual. I let it be an excuse to drink, and four days later, here I am kicking myself. To those who are struggling, take my advice- don't pick up. Nothing but regret, and it sucks having to start over again. I know it's hiding behind a keyboard, but I felt the need to get it off my chest.
You're not hiding Squig. Sometimes this is what needs to happen - I know I needed further proof that I really couldn't touch it. All attempts at moderation led to danger and misery. You sound ready to get back to your sober life - you're going to do it.
Never, ever give up, Squig. Get back on track.
Do you have a plan? Does it include face to face support? Try to utilize SR to its fullest - read and post. Don't forget SR is 24/7/365; reach out.
Do you have a plan? Does it include face to face support? Try to utilize SR to its fullest - read and post. Don't forget SR is 24/7/365; reach out.
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My father and I are very close. He's always been supportive of me. Having come from a family of alcoholics, and watching his mother drink herself to death, he understands how hard it is to kick this disease.
Squig....I don't see hiding, I see honesty.
When I read posts about relapse it serves as a reminder that I need to stay vigilant.
Thanks for posting and glad you found meetings tonight.
Keep reaching out and keep yourself safe. You can do this.
When I read posts about relapse it serves as a reminder that I need to stay vigilant.
Thanks for posting and glad you found meetings tonight.
Keep reaching out and keep yourself safe. You can do this.
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Thanks to all for the support. I'm so grateful to have found this site. I've lost count over the years how many times I swore to never put myself and loved ones through this again. There is not enough to be said about reaching out to people who have faced the same battle.
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I often think back about the six months I once had, and how I hadn't felt so great in years. I was once told that regret is like pi$$ing yourself because you are the only one who can feel it. Still, had I stayed on that road, I would have just celebrated two years.
Squig....use that as your motivation. Just think how awesome it will be in two years to look back to today and be able to say you did it!
When I first joined this site, I read a post talking about how great it was to wake up in the morning sober and with no regrets! I knew right then THAT is what I was looking for! Having no regrets is worth everything!
When I first joined this site, I read a post talking about how great it was to wake up in the morning sober and with no regrets! I knew right then THAT is what I was looking for! Having no regrets is worth everything!
Squig, you know how great it can be sober, Mao you can do this again. I had almost a year, my hen started drinking again. I did not consumer half as much as I used to". But regardless, My feelings and emotions became s roller coaster, and I knew quitting was the thing to do to feel better.
Unfortunately, it takes just as much time to feel better again.
Keep at it!
Unfortunately, it takes just as much time to feel better again.
Keep at it!
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