At This Time 3 Years Ago I Was Hammered!
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At This Time 3 Years Ago I Was Hammered!
I guess I wasn't that much worse than usual, at least I don't remember it that way but the next day I just decided that I'd had enough and stopped drinking and I haven't picked up since. I just couldn't stand the hangovers anymore. That has remained the anchor of my sobriety ever since, I mean, there are hundreds of reasons for an alcoholic like me to not drink and I appreciate all of them but there is nothing like waking up in the morning and not having that nasty half sick what-the-heck-did-I-do-to-myself feeling! Every Day! I eat breakfast and it feels good. My hangovers used to last all day sometimes and by the end of the day I was just sick of being awake. Sounds were painful and everyone annoyed me. No more!
For years I wanted to be a non drinker, I didn't want to quit but I wanted to not be tied to beer. I was jealous of people that didn't need the alcohol to have a good time. Actually, I mostly did not understand how anyone could live that way. I spent so much money on beer, much of it when I was so poor. I try not to entertain regrets but that money could have bought a freaking house! I come from and associate with "high functioning alcoholics" which is basically a full load of BS except that they will accept my crazy drinking without batting an eye. Almost no one ever told me that I drank too much. The idea of quitting was entirely my own.
Quitting was very hard, oh yeah, but with some perspective I realize that living the life of an alcoholic was actually harder. The thing about living with alcoholism is that it destroys hope, the hard things lead to pain and misery. Being sober, the hard things lead to better things. Work pays off.
Thanks very much to SR, which I discovered early. All of you guys and gals rock. I hope that I am able to pay back even a little bit of all the benefits that I have gotten here.
For years I wanted to be a non drinker, I didn't want to quit but I wanted to not be tied to beer. I was jealous of people that didn't need the alcohol to have a good time. Actually, I mostly did not understand how anyone could live that way. I spent so much money on beer, much of it when I was so poor. I try not to entertain regrets but that money could have bought a freaking house! I come from and associate with "high functioning alcoholics" which is basically a full load of BS except that they will accept my crazy drinking without batting an eye. Almost no one ever told me that I drank too much. The idea of quitting was entirely my own.
Quitting was very hard, oh yeah, but with some perspective I realize that living the life of an alcoholic was actually harder. The thing about living with alcoholism is that it destroys hope, the hard things lead to pain and misery. Being sober, the hard things lead to better things. Work pays off.
Thanks very much to SR, which I discovered early. All of you guys and gals rock. I hope that I am able to pay back even a little bit of all the benefits that I have gotten here.
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So true that living as an alcoholic is so much harder and draining than living a sober life. Good reminder that however tough it may feel, its a million times better than being in that dark, lonely alcoholic place.
Well done on 3 years!
Well done on 3 years!
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thats awesome gaffo! I can relate i too never understood how people could have a good time without booze. I thought there was something wrong with them.... go figure. I also hated those hangovers but by 5pm i was ready to start working on the subsequent days pain all over again.
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Excellent, Gaffo, well done. And your post pretty much sums up what sobriety is like for me too. It was hard, maybe for a while, but the worst day sober is still easier than being drunk.
Well said.
The thing about living with alcoholism is that it destroys hope, and the hard things lead to pain and misery. Being sober, the hard things lead to better things. Work pays off.
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