Anon1969

I am so tired of this feeling. I drink myself into oblivion almost every night. I become a monster and hurt everyone that I love. My wife and step-daughter won't talk to me and want to kick me out. But the urge is so strong. This is only the second day that I haven't drank and I'm terrified about the future. What do I do to change my life for good?

Sudz No More

You need to stop allowing your brain to think about it for starters. Don't dwell on it, any attention you give your cravings will only intesify them. Shut them out and avoid thinking about them. Sure, they will still be there in the first couple weeks to months but your ability to think beyond them will be the key to making it out of the trap.

Don't give in, the farther you go, the easier it will get. Remember that when you struggle in the beginning and most of all, shut the thoughts out as soon as they try to enter.

Soberwolf

If you carry on drinking its only going to get worse ring aa and try getting to a mtn to get some relief from others that have been in your shoes we are here but i highly suggest a mtn if you feel like a relapse is imminent

Just hang on no point going round in circles just to get this point again and that's if you make this point again

We are all here to help you can send a msg I'll get bk to you instantly if it helps

Focus on getting thru today book an apt with doc and explain your going thru alcoholic WD

Good luck

ScottFromWI

Coming here and admitting your problem is a great first step, welcome to SR. Have you considered AA or other local support? Sobriety is possible for anyone, you included, but it takes a committment and action on your part.

Nocturnal

Prolly STOP drinking. ..some of us can do it the others cant

robgt350

i can relate,, lets stick together on this. we can do it

Soberwolf

Yes we can

SoberLife2014

Anon, have you considered rehab or AA? Don't be afraid to ask for help, especially in early sobriety. If you want to do this, you CAN, but it isn't easy. Having some help makes it a lot easier. Coming on here helps a lot too. If you've been drinking every day you might need to see a doctor too, because withdrawal symptoms can be very serious.

SoberLife2014

Oh, and don't forget to take it one day at a time Worrying about the future can become overwhelming.

NYCDoglvr

Wrong, you don't have to stop for good. It's much better to just not drink TODAY. Now you can do that. I couldn't stop on my own and went to AA, which has transformed my life. God bless!

Anon1969

Damn it, I relapsed. I am so angry with myself. It's day one all over again. I missed work because of it! Now it is affecting my job as well as my family. I just want to curl up in a ball and stay there. Damn it!

Raider

Ok well the ONLY THING I KNOW, is don't stop quitting. I don't care if you relapse a hundred times, keep getting up. It will stick eventually. Keep going!

dox

Anon1969,

At least 4 of your fellow alcoholics have suggested here that you seek out some local help, like AA.
I also recommend that you seek local help, like AA or rehab.
We are sober alcoholics. We have been where you are right now.
We are where you want to be.

Have you tried seeking local help?

forgive me if I'm stating the obvious:
People on this internet forum can only offer suggestions.

You have to put in the action for yourself.

skg

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PurpleKnight

Don't give up!!

Tweak your plan and keep moving forward!! You can do this!!

doggonecarl

Your last couple of posts have been after a relapse, when you want to quit drinking. But no posts afterwards seeking help and support.

I can't tell you how to use Sober Recovery...but the folks that make it a part of daily support program seem to have some measure of success. There are daily support threads, monthly support threads. Consider making more use of them.