ESD907

Since the day I quit, I haven't felt much of a pull to drink at all. But I was truly ready to quit, I mean ready ready ready. I'm no stronger than anyone OF course, I stayed clear of it. When I did have an urge, I did something else, and it passed quickly. This afternoon, I was walking into the kitchen with an icy cold glass of lemonade almost empty and something hit me. I was happy with this drink of choice, I was happy to walk into the kitchen and pour more. I know it sounds like such a small thing, but its the 1st time I felt something. I quit alone, no one knows. I only joined SR recently. So even though its been 2 years, I'm sort of a newbie. And one of the best parts of sobriety for me, is when I yell at my children or get annoyed too quickly, its because I'm truly tired, or grumpy or having a bad day. Before it was either I was drunk, or waiting to get back to my unfinished drink or hungover. Now its just being me. I used to try and make up for that behavior. Now, Its me, live with it. I used to be like, Lets order pizza, I'm sorry, blah blah. Now I'm owning it. And I'm 95% of the time much more patient. I'm not trying to say I'm a screaming/yelling maniac. But sobriety is good in so many ways, it the smallest of things. Its taking your kids to the part in summer (Florida) and sweating, but normal sweating, not that drinkers sweat. Its bending over and not having your eyes pop out of your head. OF having whites of your eyes, no longer constantly red/glassy. Its feeling like you can stand up for yourself rather than 'take it' because perhaps you were wrong, perhaps the last interaction you had with that person/company you were drunk and didn't recall what exactly occurred. I guess I'm trying to tell those who are trying to quit or recently quit, there are so many good things. I hope this makes sense,I'm a bit of a rambler. Even when tired, I'm willing to help with homework, or run out for a last minute supply. Or grocery shop at 10pm because it worked out that way. I don't put off much anymore. Amazing how much you can get accomplished. OK, think I'm done now..I could probably write here all night. Pretty sure everyone gets what I'm stating. Bye.

least

You're two years sober? That's awesome!

fini

ESD,
love your post!

the moments of noticing small happinesses are not small things; they're HUGE!
and i thought from your thread title you were just going to mention one thing, but you recounted so many....wonderful

makes me smile, a post like yours.

PurpleKnight

Nice post!!

ESD907

damn...and that was me only weeks before I lost it.

pulltight

And it's you again.
I have a friend that was two years sober and one night went out and willingly drank the night away.He's 22 years sober last month.
Hang in there esd!

heartbrokenK

Congrats on your two years!!

Kiya

Stick with it ESD. That time is still something that nothing else you have done can take away from you. You've done it before and can do it again. Unfortunately it seems while we are in the early stages of quitting, we are not completely sure that we can get there from here. I'm at almost 4.5 months (135 days) sober and I'm not to where you were yet. I still have a occasional little thoughts floating around about how nice a drink would be. Nothing overpowering but fleeting moments throughout the day that come and go almost as quickly.

I only have the comfort from posts of people who have made it to the point where they are completely comfortable in their sobriety. That being said we are also all human and make mistakes. You made a mistake and just need to move on now. You can't obsess over it and let that consume you. It's a reminder to me that 4 days, 4 months, 4 years or 40 years I will still be an alcoholic. And while it doesn't define me it is something that I'll always need to be aware of and I can never drink again safely.

Quiet45

Don't discredit your progress. One day at a time.

Dee74

You haven't lost anything that you learned or gained or accomplished in that time ESD...unless you choose to throw it away.

Don't do that

D

ESD907

Thank you to whomever brought this back

herradura

Nice post! It seems when you get sober you get to really live who you are, instead of making concessions because of the drink.

RecklessEric

It's funny ESD, well not "ha ha" funny, but after two years sober, I found myself drunk.
I didn't know why (apart from the obvious - I drank).
There was no big drama that I was going through or anything.
Looking back, it's clear that I became complacent.
You'll have learned a lot in those two years and perhaps a lot more since.
Back on the horse and back on track, my friend.
Keep on keepin' on.

Arbor

How are you doing ESD? Haven't heard from you lately in the October class thread...hope alls well.

IWLSAST

Such a cool story. Looking at that glass and feeling happy and joyous is the gift of sobriety...not how many days you didn't drink.

Thanks for that!!

aasharon90

Not having a career in drinking alcohol
does give us much more time to enjoy
the littlest things in life we use to take
for granted.

For once we can see the beauty of all
that surrounds us. Smell things that will
make us smile. Fine fragrant flowers,
perfumes, delicious dishes, etc.

All those little small things, especially
our little precious children we treasure
and never take for granted as gifts from
Above showing love, care, understanding,
smiles and hugs day after day.

Sobriety/Recovery Rules..!!!!!

ESD907

thanks ....I'm watching..'m sober, but very wary. Until I go away in November, I'm afraid.