Bad Vegancat
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Join Date: Jul 2004
Location: Seattle, WA
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Bad Vegancat
OK, so I just experienced my first setback, in the form of a six pack and pack of cigarettes last night :nono: . I don't know why I broke down after 8 days of not drinking and ten of not smoking, other than I felt like I deserved a "fun" night (rolling eyes here). It WASN'T fun, btw....I did all the stupid things I usually do when drinking and woke up ashamed of myself. And I've had a well-deserved headache all day and no energy. Plus I don't think I can look my neighbor in the face again (can't remember all the things I talked about, but I remeber I was way too overly friendly).
But, ANYWAY, I'm trying not to dwell on this and beat myself up about, but use it as another lesson yet again as to why I should not drink and that it is impossible for ME to stop at just a few (for it WAS suppose to be just a few....).
Hey, degader....thanks for the email :8a: . I actually wrote you a long old response, but had sent it via "reply" and it was sent back to me undelivered. I have a few off topic questions for you.
But, ANYWAY, I'm trying not to dwell on this and beat myself up about, but use it as another lesson yet again as to why I should not drink and that it is impossible for ME to stop at just a few (for it WAS suppose to be just a few....).
Hey, degader....thanks for the email :8a: . I actually wrote you a long old response, but had sent it via "reply" and it was sent back to me undelivered. I have a few off topic questions for you.
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Join Date: Apr 2004
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Welcome back.
Nasty headache.
Uncertain about what I said to the neighbor...
Yep.
Don't miss that one bit.
Funny how we can forget how lousy we make our lives when we drink after a week or so of being sober. I did that for so many years. But after a bit, the intervals became shorter and shorter, and I finally became a daily fool. It got real ugly after that.
Today, after learning a few things from other alcoholics and addicts, I'm able to think beyond the good fuzzy feelings of the first drink.
Nasty headache.
Uncertain about what I said to the neighbor...
Yep.
Don't miss that one bit.
Funny how we can forget how lousy we make our lives when we drink after a week or so of being sober. I did that for so many years. But after a bit, the intervals became shorter and shorter, and I finally became a daily fool. It got real ugly after that.
Today, after learning a few things from other alcoholics and addicts, I'm able to think beyond the good fuzzy feelings of the first drink.
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Join Date: Jul 2004
Location: Michigan
Posts: 32
Nope, don't miss that one bit either.
There was a time when the idea of getting sober scared the complete crap out of me. Now, not a whole lot does (other than a healthy fear of getting drunk again--just can't guarantee what'll happen if i do) Who'da thunk being sober would be this good? Certainly not me-LOL.
Gotta Big Book V.C.? Might want to check out the first couple chapters.
thanks and take care--matt f
There was a time when the idea of getting sober scared the complete crap out of me. Now, not a whole lot does (other than a healthy fear of getting drunk again--just can't guarantee what'll happen if i do) Who'da thunk being sober would be this good? Certainly not me-LOL.
Gotta Big Book V.C.? Might want to check out the first couple chapters.
thanks and take care--matt f
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Join Date: May 2003
Location: El Paso, Tx
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PJB!
Welcome to SR! We all understand and have been there. How could we continue to do something that give a temporary "fix" and make us feel so bad in doing it? It's the disease my friend. Stick around, your in the right place!
Welcome to SR! We all understand and have been there. How could we continue to do something that give a temporary "fix" and make us feel so bad in doing it? It's the disease my friend. Stick around, your in the right place!
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Join Date: Jun 2004
Location: North Andover, MA
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Hey there--you're right, you can't beat yourself up about it--it really does no good. The lessons that you've learned are much better teachers. Whenever I admit I've drank, it's a way to hold myself accountable and not to feel sorry for myself. That's a horrible trap that keeps the cycle continuing on for me.
I'm glad you're back too! Being here is a testament of your willingness to remain sober. That's why I keep comming back. Like everyone else said, you're in the right place.
Danielle
I'm glad you're back too! Being here is a testament of your willingness to remain sober. That's why I keep comming back. Like everyone else said, you're in the right place.
Danielle
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Welcome back Vegancat, I know all to well how you feel. Not fun, not fun at all. Hey, but guess what? We're neighbors. I live three hrs. West of Seattle. Your the first Seattle post I've noticed. I'll be right over with some aspirin. 
Take care...
Talia
Take care...Talia
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Join Date: Apr 2003
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What keeps me from doing it anymore is remembering those unexplainable "why did I do that?" moments.. Thanks for reminding me once again that the dysfunction took all the fun out of it.
Welcome and Welcome back!
Welcome and Welcome back!
Thank you, Chy! 
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