15 years sober
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Join Date: Aug 2012
Location: Queensland
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15 years sober
I was an alcoholic. I drank in secret. I drank to forget. Not that I ever did forget. I drank until I was a mess. Then I found out I was pregnant. That day I stopped drinking. My last drink was 1998. Since then I have despised alcohol and the effects it has on people. I absolutely hate it. It has just been recent that I think about having a drink. My husband will have a beer in the fridge and I think about having it but I won't touch it. The craving to have a drink is becoming more frequent. I don't ever want to go back there again.
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Ohio
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And you don't have to. It sounds like you are considering it as an option, remove the option.
There must be a reason that you want to escape again. Look at yourself and try and find it. It is there, you only need to look.
Hang in there and take it one day, one craving at a time, and don't pick up.
Did you work any recovery program in the past?
There must be a reason that you want to escape again. Look at yourself and try and find it. It is there, you only need to look.
Hang in there and take it one day, one craving at a time, and don't pick up.
Did you work any recovery program in the past?
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Engerland
Posts: 897
15 years sober is amazing. Well done.
I think probably that you still are an alcoholic, albeit a sober one, and that you have done the right thing in reaching out here. My alcoholism appears not to go away, but for now i am managing it happily and soberly.
You will find a lot of experience and support here.
Time to put your foot on the recovery gas pedal maybe.
Wishing you well.
G
I think probably that you still are an alcoholic, albeit a sober one, and that you have done the right thing in reaching out here. My alcoholism appears not to go away, but for now i am managing it happily and soberly.
You will find a lot of experience and support here.
Time to put your foot on the recovery gas pedal maybe.
Wishing you well.
G
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Join Date: Aug 2012
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I have no desire to drink just every now and then I think I would like 1 beer but I know that it will slowly turn into something more. I have children that depend on me. I cannot go there. I will not go there. Thanks for all the support. I have never done any recovery program. Just stopped. I abhor alcohol. The way people act on it disgusts me. When my husband has a drink it I hate it. He doesn't always drink but he binge drinks. That puts me off a bit.
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I would seriously consider professional help or AA. Something in your life has changed and you better find out what it is. Relapses occur long before you drink so get outside help ASAP
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Georgia
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I was clean and sober for 13 years and relapsed for 8 years. I started drinking after 13 years because I thought I was "normal" again...that I had it under control; that I understood where it could go and that I "wouldn't let it get that bad again". It was that bad....and worse. Much worse. I got back in to counseling and this site has been really a great source of support for me.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
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Im 23 yrs. sober and thoughts pop up
from time to time for me too. However,
it does me no good to romanticize, dream
or wish I could have one, because one
drink will never be enough to satisfy my
cravings for it. There will never be enough
alcohol in this world, lifetime to ever drink
it successfully.
A program of recovery to rely on, a recovery
bag filled with recovery arsenal to draw on
can quickly help me dismiss those unwanted
thoughts or ideas that if acted upon could and
would either make me go crazy or kill me.
Alcohol, no matter how tempting it maybe
is all poison. A dark brown bottle with a skull
and crossbone and the word poison on front
of it.
from time to time for me too. However,
it does me no good to romanticize, dream
or wish I could have one, because one
drink will never be enough to satisfy my
cravings for it. There will never be enough
alcohol in this world, lifetime to ever drink
it successfully.
A program of recovery to rely on, a recovery
bag filled with recovery arsenal to draw on
can quickly help me dismiss those unwanted
thoughts or ideas that if acted upon could and
would either make me go crazy or kill me.
Alcohol, no matter how tempting it maybe
is all poison. A dark brown bottle with a skull
and crossbone and the word poison on front
of it.
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: illinois
Posts: 907
15 years! that's so great!
focus on that. focus on the fact that you just became an inspiration to me! im 3months out. if nothing surprising happens, I may be in decent shape in 15 years. I wasn't headed that way.
focus on that. focus on the fact that you just became an inspiration to me! im 3months out. if nothing surprising happens, I may be in decent shape in 15 years. I wasn't headed that way.
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Join Date: May 2013
Location: fort worth tx
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Think about what soberclover experienced. He went back out 8 years after 13 years of sobriety. That's the reality of this insidious disease. It is relentless. Given a chance it will kill you. Don't give it that chance. Thank you for sharing with us. Our lives depend on it. And don't drink. Its a dead end street. You know that.
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