SineadOConnor

Alcoholism denial.

I'm going through alot of emotional fears and I drink to try and resolve it. Not everyday, but I binge. I've taken care of my mother and I have this strong need to take care of someone or something, other than myself. She is now in an assisted living facility and I'm living in her house being the caretaker of the property. I feel restless all the time, but can't afford my own place in this town. I know I can do this because I got sober for 5 years and went back because I lost my dog, Amber.

I know in my heart I need more help and yes, AA meetings. I'm going to attend one today and what ever it takes. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired when I see and hear success stories other than mine.

To be honest folks. I have no clue where to start to get professional help. I've tried AA for a number of years and struggled with the concepts. I've even thought about attending WFS.

Any thoughts. Thanks. I'm ready to be bashed.

azbluesgal

Do the latter - it makes more sense, it's designed for women, and it's healthy and healing.

falseemperor

After 5 year do u need professional help? About alcohol or mental problems?

Croissant

I've only recently discovered that what I thought was my need to take care of others, was actually a part of my alcoholism...a need to control things. I didn't feel very comfortable with that, but I think it's the truth.

I had to take a step back and see how many times I need to "fix" or do things for others. Not actually a good thing.

SineadOConnor

Thank you everyone. Still in a quandary but sober. I will keep working on this.

Croissant

Hope you feel better today.