Berrybean

Meetings aren't just for 'being social'.

I can honestly say, looking at my step 4 lists, what you've said in your status could so easily have been me 14 months ago. You know alcohol is unmanageable for you. That's step one already. If you get to a meeting, listen, think and get on a 12-step program your life and your urges would be changed as you start to understand what is driving them. You would learn to take back control. The promise DO come true.

The AA Promises
1. If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed
before we are half way through.
2. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.
3. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
4. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.
5. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience
can benefit others.
6. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear.
7. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.
8. Self-seeking will slip away.
9. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.
10. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us.
11. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.
12. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for
ourselves
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us -
sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them

SoberAlky

Seeing an addiction psychiatrist and therapist is always a good idea as well. At 25 days, you don't need to be detoxed, but a psychiatrist can prescribe medication as needed to help ease you back into sobriety. And while AA has it's place, the opinions and advice of well-meaning laypeople is not an adequate substitute for talking to a professional therapist who specializes in dealing with addiction, in my experience.