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Still I rise.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
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It is. I am 20 months and I still get cravings sometimes. I don't even have to have a bad day to get them. And yes there are somedays I just want to throw my hands up and say "what is really the point of all this?"
I measure my success in the fact I don't give into them anymore. That is success to me. I can ride them out and know that I have different ways of coping with them now. And that makes me feel good .
I measure my success in the fact I don't give into them anymore. That is success to me. I can ride them out and know that I have different ways of coping with them now. And that makes me feel good .
I am feeling good that I have made it this far, and I thank you for reminding me of that success.
Still I rise.
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Hi Ophelia. I occasionally felt that way my first couple of years sober. All we can do is ride it out - and do what you're doing - reaching out for suggestions. Posting here, tv, reading - anything to distract ourselves until the weirdness leaves. I'm sure others will have some thoughts. Proud of you for not caving.
Thank you so much. You WERE right about the "weirdness" leaving…
In the midst of it, I don't think it's ever going to leave. I have to trust that it does, and I'm glad I trusted you last night that it would b/c it did (for the most part…still having aftershocks of some of the turmoil but MUCH better than last night!)
I took your suggestions and rode it out with a combination of methods-->this site and everyone's suggestions/support, tv, food, and ibuprofen!
I appreciate your words and YOU!
Still I rise.
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I felt that way too early on - not often, but enough to be upsetting. Those thoughts have almost entirely left me now. We relied on it for so long to help us cope (even though it didn't). It's bound to haunt us for a while, but we know where it will take us - there's no relief in picking up - just more anxiety and misery.
Still I rise.
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I want to thank you for your sweetness when I was feeling so crappy last night. I did actually get some sleep; your mom was right…wise woman. Thank you for taking the time to support me when I was down.
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Ophelia,
I can definitely relate to the routine of work, go home with work I either did not get to that day, or work that was due tomorrow, than go back to work and start over. I was on top of things at work, but somewhere along the way, I lost myself. Stopped seeing friends, saw family only when I had to, always thinking of getting home to get more work done. That's an insane way of living, if you can call that living. Eventually just stayed home and drank and worked. Had to drink a lot just to be able to unwind enough to sleep. Did this for many years. Fortunately, I realized what I was doing to myself, and made some changes. Today, my priority is me and my health, including finding a balance in life. Try giving yourself a break, even if its a small one. Make yourself go to a movie, or listen to a band, etc. Wanting to drink when all you do is work, work, work. That makes sense to me. Try to give yourself a break. Be nice to yourself. Take that bath, or just take a walk. You certainly deserve that and much more.
I can definitely relate to the routine of work, go home with work I either did not get to that day, or work that was due tomorrow, than go back to work and start over. I was on top of things at work, but somewhere along the way, I lost myself. Stopped seeing friends, saw family only when I had to, always thinking of getting home to get more work done. That's an insane way of living, if you can call that living. Eventually just stayed home and drank and worked. Had to drink a lot just to be able to unwind enough to sleep. Did this for many years. Fortunately, I realized what I was doing to myself, and made some changes. Today, my priority is me and my health, including finding a balance in life. Try giving yourself a break, even if its a small one. Make yourself go to a movie, or listen to a band, etc. Wanting to drink when all you do is work, work, work. That makes sense to me. Try to give yourself a break. Be nice to yourself. Take that bath, or just take a walk. You certainly deserve that and much more.
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