Either I start drinking again, or ship myself off to the nuthouse
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
Were you tho?
I have to say that's not the sense I got from you when you got here.
I don't think drinking is the solution you're trying to convince yourself it is.
I think it will just compound matters and make everything more difficult.
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I have to say that's not the sense I got from you when you got here.
I don't think drinking is the solution you're trying to convince yourself it is.
I think it will just compound matters and make everything more difficult.
D
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In my absolute lowest moment, where I had no where to turn, nothing left to give, no one to help me, and I was slowly slipping away, I asked, out loud for some help.
Might I inquire, have you tried that ?
Might I inquire, have you tried that ?
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RQ, maybe going inpatient is the best option for you now. maybe just 48 hours might be enough time for you to catch your breath and get a bit of clarity.
Going to inpatient rehab was the best thing for me. I was able to stay 30 days and it really connected me enough to get back on my feet.
I understand about wanting to be just in oblivion, I really really do. But we have obligations in this life. We have people who love us and people we need to care for. And we can do it. not on our own, but there is help out there. Do call your doctors and see about a few days of inpatient. if not necessarily "nut house" try rehab. That's where I learned how to be sober and how to get the help I needed.
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Going to inpatient rehab was the best thing for me. I was able to stay 30 days and it really connected me enough to get back on my feet.
I understand about wanting to be just in oblivion, I really really do. But we have obligations in this life. We have people who love us and people we need to care for. And we can do it. not on our own, but there is help out there. Do call your doctors and see about a few days of inpatient. if not necessarily "nut house" try rehab. That's where I learned how to be sober and how to get the help I needed.
love to you from Lenina
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Originally Posted by sugarbear1
are you opposed to AA?
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Originally Posted by alphaomega
In my absolute lowest moment, where I had no where to turn, nothing left to give, no one to help me, and I was slowly slipping away, I asked, out loud for some help.
Might I inquire, have you tried that ?
Might I inquire, have you tried that ?
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I remember being where you are 7 months ago, i made the decision to pick up after 2-1/2 years. At first things were ok, but now I am tryng once again to get out of the cycle, my drinkings as bad as ever.
Just wanted to give my experience, I didnt take the advice I got here, I hope you do, the drink isnt the answer.
Just wanted to give my experience, I didnt take the advice I got here, I hope you do, the drink isnt the answer.
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RQ, after reading and re-reading your posts, and trying to "bottom-line" the concerns and emotions you express, your references to "issues" keeps ringing with me. For me, getting sober was the easy part when compared with the work which ensued after sobriety was achieved; dealing with the reasons I drank in the first place was far more torturous. If you don't have the support systems close at hand to deal with the issues you have mentioned and which seem to have risen to crisis level, it may be time to pull out the stops seek intensive therapy (inpatient, intensive out-patient).
Many positive thoughts and energy being sent your way.
Many positive thoughts and energy being sent your way.
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RQ,
you say you're dead; dead inside.
could be entirely wrong, but just this: you're very much alive. hence the pain, the too-much, the overwhelm, the barrage.
i've understood that drinking is "easier", and that yes, it can give the very temporary "happiness", but of course it can't give happiness, the real thing.
it gives illusions and a few moments of relief.
one thing (don't hit me!) that can help me when it's all too much "works" quite consistently, and that's to change the focus.
really listen to someone else; hear her/him.
really be with my dog for a few minutes. really be present to the life i encounter on a walk.
it's more satisfying relief for me than the crappy kind from getting wasted.
it's real.
sorry you're suffering so, RQ.
you say you're dead; dead inside.
could be entirely wrong, but just this: you're very much alive. hence the pain, the too-much, the overwhelm, the barrage.
i've understood that drinking is "easier", and that yes, it can give the very temporary "happiness", but of course it can't give happiness, the real thing.
it gives illusions and a few moments of relief.
one thing (don't hit me!) that can help me when it's all too much "works" quite consistently, and that's to change the focus.
really listen to someone else; hear her/him.
really be with my dog for a few minutes. really be present to the life i encounter on a walk.
it's more satisfying relief for me than the crappy kind from getting wasted.
it's real.
sorry you're suffering so, RQ.
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RQ, for what it's worth, I live pretty flat inside too but have found a kind of peace
instead of living in the drama and false emotional lifts I got from 30 years of drinking.
You mentioned you've been sober 6 moths, which is a great start, but I will be honest
and tell you that it was over a year before I started to actually feel "better" about the
big picture.
At six months, the crap I had pushed down was just starting to surface for me
and it was actually a crisis point in my life. I don't know if that is what is
happening with you, but I am suggesting that perhaps you should give it
more time than 6 months before trying something else.
I do know what it is to feel empty and dead inside.
I send you good wishes and the stamina to keep trying.
There is life under the barren part of ourselves we have built with the addiction.
I think moving forward may be the only way out.
instead of living in the drama and false emotional lifts I got from 30 years of drinking.
You mentioned you've been sober 6 moths, which is a great start, but I will be honest
and tell you that it was over a year before I started to actually feel "better" about the
big picture.
At six months, the crap I had pushed down was just starting to surface for me
and it was actually a crisis point in my life. I don't know if that is what is
happening with you, but I am suggesting that perhaps you should give it
more time than 6 months before trying something else.
I do know what it is to feel empty and dead inside.
I send you good wishes and the stamina to keep trying.
There is life under the barren part of ourselves we have built with the addiction.
I think moving forward may be the only way out.
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