freethinking

I desperately want to stop drinking. But, a certain point comes at each day, where my "desperate" desire is overrode by my desire to drink.

I hope tomorrow is different. I am so tired of this. Even kind of tired of posting about it.

I really hope tomorrow is different. That something changes in my thinking. This is just sad, not fun, and putting everyone through the ringer.

I normally would roll my eyes at a request like this, but please say a prayer for me if you can. I need to stop.

JustODAAT

What is your plan for tomorrow? Writing it out is a way of visualizing it, which is a step toward committing to it.

When I quit I had to have a plan.

KateL

Positive vibes coming your way. You obviously want to get better so just keep on trying. I aint gonna lie, life can be crap, but it's crappier when you're addicted to something xxxxxxx

huntingtontx

I will be praying, but I think you have to decide not to drink tomorrow, no matter what. No one will pour it down your throat. I post each day on the 24 hour thread and it helps me keep my commitment. I make up my mind each day, that today, I will not drink. One day at a time you can do this.

Hevyn

Hi freethinking. I certainly will say a prayer for you. There's no doubt that you can stop - I did after 30 yrs. It was bringing me nothing but misery in the end. Time to make the big change and begin your new life.

freethinking

Well, my life is pretty mundane. So, I guess all I envision is sleeping quite a bit and "riding it out". I am 1/2 way physically addicted right now, so there has to be some "envisioning" of feeling like crap and sticking through that instead of taking the easy way out and pouring booze over the hangover.

MsJax

Good thoughts coming your way, free . Can you mix it up tomorrow? Do things different? At first I even had to drive different ways on errands, everything had to change-for me-to live in sobriety. What will you do different?

freethinking

God, I don't know. I am pretty restricted to the house during the day. So, I don't know how to change it up too much.

alphaomega

(((FREE))) Nothing changes if nothing changes. If a spiritual epiphany is what you are seeking, get on your knees, bow your head, and ask for it.

I will absolutely hold you in my prayers today, tomorrow and for as long as you like me too.

Just say the word.

freethinking

Thanks AO.

Maybe I will hit my knees. Certainly won't kill me.

Mountainmanbob

That's a great request
prayers sent out from So Calif
MM

Dee74

You already have my prayers FT

If afternoon is a problem for you, can you plan ways to tackle the desire?

D

freethinking

I was actually thinking, and this may sound ridiculous, but maybe food will help - as in food I enjoy. I can't drive right now, but I am certain my husband would go out and buy me snacks for tomorrow if that would help me quit. Also, maybe a movie on TV.

Thanks for the prayers, much appreciated (everyone). Am always floored by this place.

Dee74

It's not ridiculous at all - food can really help.

I assumed you'd seen this, but mebbe not?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

D

jdooner

I don't pray but I will send you some positive energy. My witching hour was 4-6PM. It helped to have a non alcoholic drink - mine is crane grape heavy with soda and a lemon in a rocks glass and on ice. It reminds me of a drink and helps quite a bit. I start to consume copious amounts of sugar, cookies, ice cream etc too early in sobriety. I change this later on and any weight gains came off.

You are not helpless, just powerless. So you have to change things up yourself then the rest will start to work.

Best of luck - keep posting its helpful for us and you:-)

heath480

I will pray for you.

If you are housebound you can post here on SR when you get a craving,there is always someone here.

Stay away from the first drink.

You can do it.

karate

Prayers sent your way .

Food helps too

least

Praying for success.

SavingSelf

All the positive energy I can send your way.

Try anything and everything, but above all, keep trying. We all have been where you are. Really and truly. I am nothing special at all, and I currently have almost 17 months. You can do it. We all can.

alphaomega

You have to prepare for what lies ahead. With the volume you have been currently consuming, recognize that it is going to be physically equivalent to climbing Mt. Everest.

You have a challenging road ahead. Plan for that.

If you are going to NOT drink tomorrow, how do you intend to handle the physical symptoms of withdrawal ? You eluded the hangover today by continuing to consume so tomorrow is going to be hell. I don't say this to scare you, I just want you to prepare.

I want this so much for you.

Free - you can make this your last withdrawal. You don't ever have to face this again.

I'm here if you ever want to talk.

XO AO