Never thought I'd land here
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Never thought I'd land here
I'm a nurse, I've seen DT's, cirrhosis, GI bleeding, homelessness, abandonment, you name it...My childhood included alcoholism in the home. You'd think I'd know better????
I have been a binge drinker for years now. I used to binge every week or so and over the past 6 mos my behavior deteriorated. The last time I binged, it last 3 days, maybe 4. I knew I was a problem drinker, but didn't feel like I was an alcoholic until I began loosing time and then the withdrawal symptoms kind of confirmed it.
I haven't had a drink in 5 days. The nausea, palpitations, body aches, insomnia, and buzzing in my head have eased. Hot flases????Going through menopause too. I'm feeling a little low, but happy with my accomplishment and looking forward to taking charge and feeling healthy.
I have never discussed this with anyone... you all are the first! I think my husband has a clue, but has never confronted me. I always drank when everyone else was in bed or not at home, and for a long time it was sort of infrequent. I feel ashamed for my behavior and was shocked to see all the bottles from my last binge (which I secretly discarded).
I am so impressed by the very sincere and almost poetic way people express themselves here. I think I can share and learn and I hope it will help. I have no desire to drink today, but being a bnger, not sure how long that will last. Anyway, thanks for listening
I have been a binge drinker for years now. I used to binge every week or so and over the past 6 mos my behavior deteriorated. The last time I binged, it last 3 days, maybe 4. I knew I was a problem drinker, but didn't feel like I was an alcoholic until I began loosing time and then the withdrawal symptoms kind of confirmed it.
I haven't had a drink in 5 days. The nausea, palpitations, body aches, insomnia, and buzzing in my head have eased. Hot flases????Going through menopause too. I'm feeling a little low, but happy with my accomplishment and looking forward to taking charge and feeling healthy.
I have never discussed this with anyone... you all are the first! I think my husband has a clue, but has never confronted me. I always drank when everyone else was in bed or not at home, and for a long time it was sort of infrequent. I feel ashamed for my behavior and was shocked to see all the bottles from my last binge (which I secretly discarded).
I am so impressed by the very sincere and almost poetic way people express themselves here. I think I can share and learn and I hope it will help. I have no desire to drink today, but being a bnger, not sure how long that will last. Anyway, thanks for listening
Last edited by matrac; 02-14-2014 at 03:59 PM. Reason: spelling issues
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It's very good to have you join us matrac! I think SR will be a huge help to you.
I once binged too - but after years of it I found myself drinking daily, totally dependent. Never dreamed it would happen to me. I was so afraid to let go of it, but now I realize the danger I put myself in. It's great to be free of it.
I once binged too - but after years of it I found myself drinking daily, totally dependent. Never dreamed it would happen to me. I was so afraid to let go of it, but now I realize the danger I put myself in. It's great to be free of it.
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I also grew up in an alcoholic home, and I also should have known better...but then we both do know better now, don't we? Welcome. This is an incredibly supportive place. You may not have ever thought you'd be here, but I'm sure you'll find what you're looking for.
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It gets the best and worst......and the middle. Doesn't care what line of work you're in.....Im no nurse or Doctor....and even I knew better. But...we are here...helping eachother...and that's what counts. Glad you are here....
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Matracm there are plenty of intelligent people here who out to know better, but this insidious disease can creep up on you. This is a fantastic site for support and understanding.
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It can happen to anyone. Nothing phases people.
It can happen to anyone. Nothing phases people.
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Welcome! I go to a women's meeting by my hone and more than a third of the women there are nurses so you are not alone.
Congrats on getting through the first few hard days. What is the plan to stay stopped?
Congrats on getting through the first few hard days. What is the plan to stay stopped?
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Originally Posted by jdooner 
Funny I always knew I belonged here and thought I would end up much worse.
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its like when you find an old fun size milky way bar in your coat pocket from last year.....its half melted and misshapen.....its a pain the a** to open and takes longer than anticipated....but the pay off is so freakin sweet....
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