ChiefBromden

I knew exactly what was happening.

The big lie I did tell myself however was that it's impossible to quit, to change.

Birdygirl

I always tell myself that I don't drink THAT much. What a big lie.

soberlicious

Like ChiefBromden, I too knew what was happening. I did not ever lie to myself, I simply made excuses and created justifications to continue my addiction/bad behavior.

The big lies for me came from others: You are not capable of stopping once and for all and for good. It's not your fault...you're sick. You have but a daily reprieve. You are spiritually sick.

nomis

You had people telling you you weren't capable of stopping for all and for good?! Sounds like a crummy crowd to hang with.

soberlicious

I agree nomis, that's why I stopped hanging with them. I don't just have today without a drink...I have forever without a drink.

bigsombrero

Throw me in board with Chief & Soberlicious - I knew what was going on. But I still lied to myself. I told myself I deserved to be drunk whenever I wanted. I had overcome more than anyone knew, and drinking was my reward, a much deserved "vacation from sobriety" that became a full-time occupation. I'd also mumble to myself "I'll take care of this later" ("this" was what I called my alcoholism) every morning when I'd start pouring the hard liquor into my glass of OJ.

Restart9

I would blackout about once a week, and I somehow convinced myself that was normal and not a problem.

onehotsummer

"I'll quit tomorrow"

newhope01

I think I always knew how bad I was, but I'll never forget how shocked I was after I discovered that not everyone drinks the way I do and most people don't drink at all.

matt4x4

Interestingly enough, our brains are what hold us back, our thought pattern. Our bodies can take a beating time and time again, but our mental faculties are the limiting factor.

There is always a tomorrow. There is only one today. Am I going to not drink today on facts, or am I going to drink on the lie?

SillyString

I told myself so many lies, but this one you shared really hit home. I blacked out every Friday and Saturday night...for YEARS. I somehow managed to look the other way so I could continue drinking.

Pure insanity. One of my very favorite things about being sober is remembering everything.

SeaScape

That I could manage my drinking...seriously manage it...by taking nights "off" and eating healthy foods and working out some...oh and supplements.
What a waste of my management skills!
I honestly believed other peoe partied like I did on the weekends. I thought everyone drank with purpose on Friday nights. I realize now that was short sighted thinking.

MariahGayle

I don't give a s#@t what anyone thinks about me

I'm managing everything & not hurting anyone

DoubleBarrel

That my kids aren't being affected by my drinking.

Vandermast

ah now lets see...

ill only have one

oops ill only have one more

ill never drive drunk

sticking needles in my arms was ok

taking 300mg of codeine for back and neck pain is ok.

it'll be ok if I quit everything except marijuana

its normal to drive with one eye closed if you drink too much

I can stay sober with no support

no one knows I am an alcoholic/addict

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