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Hey
Over 14 months clean now, for me.
I got the urge to check in with you guys yesterday though, to remind me to stay vigilant.
I did not feel like drinking, and do not get the compulsion to do so ever now, really, but I had a weird feeling that now the memory of all the pain I went through is fading, I might accidentally drink again, without thinking what I am doing. This might sound a bit weird, but I suppose what I mean is that it has been fairly good for me of late, and I am not feeling like I am battling against my addiction at the moment, so if presented with a drink or anything else, I might forget that I can not consume it, and slip up.
Hope that makes sense. I needed to post this here to stick a flag in the ground for myself, to say, I am still a drug addict, even if I am not feeling like one at the moment and I need to realise that and be careful.
Wishing you the best and hoping you are all getting through this hell, no matter what stage you are at.
Cheers.
Over 14 months clean now, for me.
I got the urge to check in with you guys yesterday though, to remind me to stay vigilant.
I did not feel like drinking, and do not get the compulsion to do so ever now, really, but I had a weird feeling that now the memory of all the pain I went through is fading, I might accidentally drink again, without thinking what I am doing. This might sound a bit weird, but I suppose what I mean is that it has been fairly good for me of late, and I am not feeling like I am battling against my addiction at the moment, so if presented with a drink or anything else, I might forget that I can not consume it, and slip up.
Hope that makes sense. I needed to post this here to stick a flag in the ground for myself, to say, I am still a drug addict, even if I am not feeling like one at the moment and I need to realise that and be careful.
Wishing you the best and hoping you are all getting through this hell, no matter what stage you are at.
Cheers.
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Congrats on 14 months plus 
but I dunno TD...I might have done that once, but not anymore.
I finally accepted that taking a drink is not just taking a drink for me - it's the start of a whole host of other things that I don't to be a part of anymore.
If you've accepted that too, then taking a drink will never be just taking a drink for you you either.
It can't ever be just a casual unthinking decision again - not once you accept the implications, and although you might wrestle with doubt, you'll have nothing to fear
But if you're still not sure, well then yeah - maybe there's some work to do?
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but I dunno TD...I might have done that once, but not anymore.
I finally accepted that taking a drink is not just taking a drink for me - it's the start of a whole host of other things that I don't to be a part of anymore.
If you've accepted that too, then taking a drink will never be just taking a drink for you you either.
It can't ever be just a casual unthinking decision again - not once you accept the implications, and although you might wrestle with doubt, you'll have nothing to fear
But if you're still not sure, well then yeah - maybe there's some work to do?
D
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It makes perfect sense and something that I look forward to.
I totally believe that with work and some time that you can become indifferent to alcohol.
I am so happy for you and you won't believe this but you have actually made my day.
Congratulations
I totally believe that with work and some time that you can become indifferent to alcohol.
I am so happy for you and you won't believe this but you have actually made my day.
Congratulations
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Oh, I am absolutely sure I do not want to.
Perhaps I didn't phrase my post properly. I guess I mean it has been so long for me now, that I have not taken any drugs or drunk any alcohol, I felt like I was in danger of forgetting about the problem.
I was worried that if I did forget about it, I might end up drinking or taking drugs again. I am most likely over-thinking this, and the subconscious reason I am posting is just to tell myself I am still off drugs and off alcohol.
All good though. I am clean and will remain clean.
Perhaps I didn't phrase my post properly. I guess I mean it has been so long for me now, that I have not taken any drugs or drunk any alcohol, I felt like I was in danger of forgetting about the problem.
I was worried that if I did forget about it, I might end up drinking or taking drugs again. I am most likely over-thinking this, and the subconscious reason I am posting is just to tell myself I am still off drugs and off alcohol.
All good though. I am clean and will remain clean.
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Originally Posted by Notimetoloose 
It makes perfect sense and something that I look forward to.
I totally believe that with work and some time that you can become indifferent to alcohol.
I am so happy for you and you won't believe this but you have actually made my day.
Congratulations
I totally believe that with work and some time that you can become indifferent to alcohol.
I am so happy for you and you won't believe this but you have actually made my day.
Congratulations
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Ok gotcha.
Over analysis is something a lot of us are prone too. It has its good points - and its bad.
Indifference is not the same as complacency.
I'm indifferent to others drinking. ads on TV films and the like, but I'm not complacent about any idea I might have to one day join them.
Doubt is a pretty common human emotion anyway, alcoholics or not, but without grounds, I think you'll soon wave it away again
enjoy those months you've clocked up
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Over analysis is something a lot of us are prone too. It has its good points - and its bad.
Indifference is not the same as complacency.
I'm indifferent to others drinking. ads on TV films and the like, but I'm not complacent about any idea I might have to one day join them.
Doubt is a pretty common human emotion anyway, alcoholics or not, but without grounds, I think you'll soon wave it away again
enjoy those months you've clocked up
D
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