Sanantoniosober

I believe you can drink in moderation when you want. So can I...

But I don't want to drink in moderation.

Here's how it would go down for me,

I'll just have one drink.
Well, I'm not really feeling anything, so I guess I can have another.
Next thing I know, I'm several drinks deep, and that alcoholic voice in my head gets mad. "Why am I not drunk yet?"
Thing is, I am, but I just don't know it because I'm chasing that 'happy drunk' we all see on tv and romanticize, and this isn't it.
At this point, my brain tells me that I'm going to feel like **** tomorrow anyways, so I may as well keep drinking. I've got to start over anyways, so why not go out with a bang, right?

Before I know it, I've downed at least a fifth of whiskey, and have more in the freezer. Because damn it, if I'm gonna drink, I'm gonna be prepared to DRINK.

I sometimes wish I could drink in moderation, and at times I THINK probably I can. But I don't want to take that chance. Because I've seen what happens when I try. And I don't know that I can come back from that again. More than that, I don't want to have to come back from that again.

I KNOW I can't drink like a normal person, and I don't want to try anymore.

If you are determined to drink, I hope you can moderate. I sincerely hope you never feel like you did when you started this thread. Best of luck.

karate

I got the anxeity attacks with hangovers too .

I never knew how common it was . They were really bad .

In fact. , that is what broke me of the habit .

Mountainmanbob

sure reminds me of my heavy drinking days and nights
one thing nice about it all
as we look at those thoughts written on paper that are plaguing us
we should see clearly that this (should be our bottom) ???
there is no where else to go
there is only one thing that can save us if we are willing to be saved
we need and wish to sober up

we start by keeping the plug in the jug - no booze today

Mountainman