Had a stressful day.
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Had a stressful day.
A water pipe in my apartment building froze and my dad was getting on my last nerve. Just feeling angry and unsettled. My boyfriend is in rehab and I really miss him today. See here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...sed-today.html
Anyhoo, this morning with all this crap was going on I had a fleeting thought of drinking tonight. I immediately thought, "Ew. Drinking will not make me feel better." I literally got sick to my stomach. I am so glad that I realize it DOES NOT WORK for me anymore, period.
I also had a good talk with my dad when I was driving him home from the airport. I told him I feel he doesn't listen to me and he actually listened!
Can't wait to drink some tea and hit the hay.
Have a good night!
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...sed-today.html
Anyhoo, this morning with all this crap was going on I had a fleeting thought of drinking tonight. I immediately thought, "Ew. Drinking will not make me feel better." I literally got sick to my stomach. I am so glad that I realize it DOES NOT WORK for me anymore, period.
I also had a good talk with my dad when I was driving him home from the airport. I told him I feel he doesn't listen to me and he actually listened!
Can't wait to drink some tea and hit the hay.
Have a good night!
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My BF is coming home from rehab on Monday. I talked with him last night. The staff at the inpatient center said he is ready to come home Monday. It will be three weeks that day. I can tell he's put everything he has into this and really wants to get well. He already has a plan for his continued recovery and called his therapist to set up an appointment for Wednesday. Apparently the staff at the rehab are stellar, and he said the program has been amazing in helping him transform his way of thinking.
He also said that we have a lot to talk about. I am really looking forward to that conversation.
On another happy note, my pipes that were frozen thawed without bursting or cracking, thank god!!!!!! Actually, when I was talking with him I said, "I need you sometimes you know, even if it's just to tell me everything's gonna be okay." I don't know if it was an appropriate thing to say but it's true. I've been taking care of so much since he's been down that I thought it would help to let him know that he is important, he is useful and he is competent. I can't do it all emotionally or physically and I don't want to.
I have been doing a lot of work on myself and it feels great. I've been trying to live my life more consciously and focus on the positive. Yoga, breathing and journaling every day help. I know it's not going to be all sunshine and roses when he gets back but I'd rather look at the positive than automatically assume things will go to %$&@ again.
Anyway, thanks so much for all your love and support. It means the world to me.
He also said that we have a lot to talk about. I am really looking forward to that conversation.
On another happy note, my pipes that were frozen thawed without bursting or cracking, thank god!!!!!! Actually, when I was talking with him I said, "I need you sometimes you know, even if it's just to tell me everything's gonna be okay." I don't know if it was an appropriate thing to say but it's true. I've been taking care of so much since he's been down that I thought it would help to let him know that he is important, he is useful and he is competent. I can't do it all emotionally or physically and I don't want to.
I have been doing a lot of work on myself and it feels great. I've been trying to live my life more consciously and focus on the positive. Yoga, breathing and journaling every day help. I know it's not going to be all sunshine and roses when he gets back but I'd rather look at the positive than automatically assume things will go to %$&@ again.
Anyway, thanks so much for all your love and support. It means the world to me.
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