what if?
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what if?
If i hadn't gotten married last august i would be smoking crack this morning and last night. I just got off probation 2 weeks ago and i just know that if i was living alone jback in my nice apartment i would have been smoking crack already and definitely last night and also this morning. the snow is coming down outside and that was always a perfect reason to use/drink.
so instead i am drinking. what a brillliant plan (NOT). well it's not a plan really it just is.
I am not happy....I have no direction...My new marriage is frustrating...and frankly i am a mess. on the outside things are basicaly ok.....
so instead i am drinking. what a brillliant plan (NOT). well it's not a plan really it just is.
I am not happy....I have no direction...My new marriage is frustrating...and frankly i am a mess. on the outside things are basicaly ok.....
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You're no rookie to recovery, but your struggles continue and I'm sorry to see that. You can feel grateful about not smoking crack, but you know that drinking is just the other side of the addiction coin.
It is a new year. Perhaps if you redouble your recovery efforts you'll find the happiness you seek. You won't find it drinking. Good luck.
It is a new year. Perhaps if you redouble your recovery efforts you'll find the happiness you seek. You won't find it drinking. Good luck.
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